bus

tired.
insomnic.
sick.

I have some bad ones on my ankles. I can't swim this year unless I somehow manage to go swimming with socks on!

I voted "Yes, by accident" since there was no "I told them voluntarily" option. I told my mom with the help of my T, and mom told my dad (without my permission, no less >_< ).

I'm scared of messing up this chance to make a friend.

But I'm scared of making a friend, too.

PMs are welcome.

Ditto to what the others said. Bracelets are great, and makeup is too. I've found that liquid foundation works best (it sticks better), maybe with a little powder foundation over it...I've also used coverup makeup, the kind that comes packaged like lipstick. Sometimes it takes a bit of experimentati...

I work at a library. On weekends the childrens' section is absolutely packed with families of all kinds who come to read and spend time together. There was a mom there with three kids--two middle school age, one daughter about six. The two older kids had gone off by themselves and the mom and younge...

*I wasn't sure if this required trigs. I did not include details but some of the emotions might be triggering to some people.* * What is your secret? I don't want to stop. Why is it a secret? If my therapist or parents knew I didn't want to stop, they wouldn't trust me, they wouldn't let me stay hom...

My sister. She relies on me just as much as I rely on her. And my little brother. He looks up to me, trusts me with things that he won't talk to anyone else about, and turns to me when things are worst.

I keep trying because I love them both and I want to be there for them.

my life in 5 years as I want it to be:

- moved out of my parents' house
- SI free or at least very much reduced
- living for me, not for my mother
- at least 1 good IRL friend
- safe, healed, uninfected lip rings.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA HOW DARE YOU TOUCH ME. <b>HOW DARE YOU TOUCH ME!!</b> YOU TAKE YOUR FILTHY HANDS AND YOU GET ...

a vague ache, an intense tightness in my chest. Like my heart is trying to pull everything in.

WHAT THE xxxx IS WRONG WITH YOU?! WHY COULDN'T YOU HAVE BROUGHT ME UP NORMAL SO THAT I COULD SURVIVE AROUND NORMAL PEOPLE?! YOU REFUSED TO PUT ME IN A NORMAL SCHOOL SO I'VE GROWN UP A FREAK. NOW I CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT. I CAN'T WRITE THIS xxxxING ESSAY, I CAN'T EVEN MAKE FRIENDS. YOU KEEP ASKING I...

1) If you could paint the room you're in now to match how you're feeling or to what's going on in your life, what would it look like? Different color on each wall--peach, red, purple, white. The furniture's nice and there's enough space, but everything is put together kind of oddly, like the decora...

i'm crumbling inside.

Here, I can cry all the tears I can't in real life...

balletomane - sounds good; I've always found that studying, like anything else, is best in manageable doses. As I seem to have abandoned this thread for some time (sorry about that!), I thought I might update...my classes are going OK, getting good scores on quizzez and such...I turned in my first E...

I am proud of myself because at therapy, I actually worked on really hard stuff.