bus

I can't do life alone. I don't know what to fucking do anymore, I feel like I'm losing myself again. I hate this. I just want to have a life, I want to have people who love me.

Fuck you! I'm so sick of being let down by people.

Wake in a sweat again Another day's been laid to waste In my disgrace Stuck in my head again Feels like I'll never leave this place There's no escape I'm my own worst enemy I've given up I'm sick of feeling Is there nothing you can say Take this all away I'm suffocating Tell me what the fuck is wron...

Maybe you do care after all.. Things have been so up and down lately, I just needed us to be consistent.

D12 - How Come

How come we don't even talk no more
And you don't even call no more
We don't barely keep in touch at all
And I don't even feel the same love when we hug no more

I'm so scared, I don't want to fail. I need help, I need to get things moving now.

i am...
Worthy, strong enough,

i am not...
hopeless, pathetic, a failure

i feel...
scared

i want...
to move, to be good

i need...
help

i have...
to keep pushing

i love...
dance

i hate...
losing hope

Cold, tired, scared, stressed

:argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: I can't do this for much longer, I am g...

I thought last night was a one off but i feel just as shitty today. I try to be positive but deep down I'm still that self conscious kid who feels like she'll never be good enough.

3 years yesterday since I last cut.

What is going on? We used to talk every day like good friends do, i spent 2 days with you recently and we've barely spoken since. You haven't said anything to me when i've been having a rough few days lately. This wasn't how it was meant to work out.

Stressed and exhausted.

Can't wait til evenings don't suck. I hate being in here with him.

I'm so sick of being let down by others. I'm doing my best to move forward but feel like I keep getting pushed back.

Axium - Somber

Inside I'm empty and outside I'm numb
And I keep on waiting for the pain to succumb
Inside I'm lonely, outside I'm alone

Lonely, a little anxious but mostly just really lonely. I just want to be around people who love me and that I can have fun with. I can't remember the last time I actually had real fun.

I wish I had a friend to hang out with right now. I know I have friends... but not many here, they're spread all over the country and I feel so lonely. A loser.. .like I'm missing out on life whilst I spend yet another evening on my own, in my bedroom. I had to check for a second that I didn't post...

I'm only happy when I'm pretending. I just want to stop feeling so lonely. I want a family like that, and I want to know them.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Phew. I think I'm a little stressed..