bus

"i want comfort and familiarity and to be doing something." This really is the key, what else gives you this kind of feeling? It doesn't matter what it is, how old, how secret, how silly. What gives you comfort and familiarity that you can do right now? Or in a few minutes. Maybe watch an old favori...

Questions to Answer After A Slip slips are chances to learn. you figure out what stresses are still too hard for you and you can work on how you'll deal with them next time you run into them. so instead of beating yourself up, take action. * have you taken care of your physical wounds? Yes. * what h...

I think it depends on where you are and the profession, but I think most are required to at least provide you with a referral even if it's just a phone number. It's awful, I have gone through that as well with treatment providers. I was dumped by a psychiatrist when I was in graduate school. You are...

It's tough, my grad level year, I had my work relapse of SI I've ever had in my life, and thankfully have since stopped. It was hard too because I was working in addictions. I however, frame my treatment as we are all people and we are all in recovery, that the goal of treatment is for the client to...

Voices are serious, and for me was the #1 trigger for me cutting. I had them occasionally growing up, and in my teens. When I was 19 I would start to hear radio static then the sound of a tuning dial, and then loud staticy commanding voices. While I had bouts of SI since age 8, it wasn't until the v...

What a question! Though I don't know if I have an answer for it. The biggest loss for me I guess was my freedom. SI is a life of secrecy, I would hide my body and my feelings from everyone, even my husband. It is still something I am trying to get back, I still have scars, and it's hard sometimes to...

I'll get over this and go back to dealing with reality instead of being pissed about it. I think this is the key. We tend to dwell on what's happened rather than what we can do about it. SI provides us with a quick fix, but it doesn't address the problem. One of my questions for you is why can't yo...

I know I'm still learning but I still can't get over my mistakes.

It sounds like you were triggered very badly and unexpectedly while you were trying to use an alternate coping mechanism. That's really rough, and I know you are going through a hard time in general. It sounds like you have some good ideas as to what to do next time you have an urge, and I applaud y...

Getting behind in school work is hard, I understand you perfectly I have been in the same situation. Would it be possible to go to the school's counseling center tomorrow, and let them know how overwhelmed you are feeling, and then pass that along to your teachers? I did that a couple times when I g...

I highly suggest calling the boyfriend and the cigarette, also if you need to chat I'm around.

It might be worth going to the coping board, and the nest as well as here.

I hope you feel better.

You have some really good insight into what you can do if this happens again. Like calling a friend, running, and using the Before board. However, you seem to lack insight into what caused this to happen. Like what were the triggers that led to the urges? Was anything going on at home, at school, wi...

I'm sorry about the SI. I'm glad you posted though in an attempt to work out why it happened and how to keep it from happening in the future though. My biggest suggestion would be to think of more coping mechanisms to use other than calling someone, because calling someone is scary. Perhaps get a go...

I WAS really mad at you last night.

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I would stop feeling so angry. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? it would make the feelings go away, it would take away my one year of clean time. how do i want to feel about this in...

I just wanted to say congrats for getting through the night, I know how difficult that can be. It's especially hard when people around us don't have a full comprehension of what's going on. I think it's a really good idea to keep adding to your coping box.

I agree with this whole heartedly, so does my iPod

This song, but I don't know why: "Map Of The Problematique" by Muse Fear and panic in the air I want to be free From desolation and despair And I feel like everything I saw Is being swept away When I refuse to let you go I can't get it right Get it right Since I met you Loneliness be over When will ...

Right now I am picking anything that has red in it until I have time to make a new one of my own.

I just wanted to second the usefulness of the Before and After forum, though be prepared to do some serious work if you go there, but it will be good for you. I know the idea of therapy and medication is scary when you're young and still living at home but I think it is worth talking that over with ...