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For all the people who care. I try because I know they believe in me and they want me to and know I can fly.

Because I let myself cry instead.

Promise me you'll never forget me. If I thought you would, I'd never leave.
I love you. You have no idea what you've done for me. I miss you like hell.

I'm worried, no, terrified that I won't get the grades I need for university.

I was only there for two hours, but when I knew you were away it threw off my entire day. I miss you and I need you. Not even to talk about the big things. Just to know there's someone in my life who cares.

because I'm starting work in a week and the uniform shirt is short sleeves, and my Dad patrons the coffee shop. Because I decided to go to sleep instead. Because I was not going to let my anger at you for being cruel to me turn into myself being cruel.

For once in your fucking life, treat me the same way as you treat him. I know you're ever so in love and I love him too - the two of you are my best friends; that's why IT FUCKING HURTS when you prioritise each other so highly and so obviously over me. He comes before everything everything everythin...

Ahh I completely forgot about this! I meant to make a list AGES ago. =S

I love yours though Sam; it's brilliant!

Tired. So very, very tired.

Anxious and indecisive.

I'm pushing you and the rest of the world away because I have a fucking MOOD DISORDER. Why can't you ask me what's wrong instead of accusing me all the time? Maybe then I'd tell you about my depression instead of hiding it from you. I wish you'd help me instead of handing me ultimatums and decisions...

Your email made me cry, because I realised how much you do care. I don't want to say goodbye to you. Ever.

I'm scared of living. Please hold my hand through the darkness.

Haha, sure! Just give me a bit to think of a list... in fact, any help from anyone would be great, and might make the list even more fun. =D

So I told a friend of mine that I've been intensely urgy over the past few days and about half an hour later I had an email from her with a list of fifteen ridiculous things I had to find on the internet. The rule was that I wasn't allowed to blitz them all at once (although I was allowed to carry o...

When I picked up my little dog he licked my nose.

I love you so much. I think you're depressed, and I want to help you get help. You deserve so much to be happy.

HELP. I'm falling apart in front of you and you have no idea how to help me. Yelling and telling me you don't know why you care won't do anything for me. Getting me a dog may make me happier, but it's not going to stop this never ending cycle of insanity and this complete, out of control spiral that...

Yes, he is "Daddy." But I wish he wasn't. I wish you were.
I can't talk to him; every time I look at him I get so nervous I feel nauseous.

I want to hug you. Because I know when you return it you'll mean it.

Because I knew if I started I would never stop, and crying is better for me, so I crawled into bed and sobbed.

You're the entire reason I cry when I think of leaving school. I'll still see my friends, but you are like a Dad to me, and you can't come with me. I'll miss you so much. So, so much. I don't know what I'll do without you around. --- Mum, please wake up and get in your bed. I'm hungry and I need to ...