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its not fair that i cant anymore when everyone else can. just another reason to be an outcast. what am i going to do? i am so angry.

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i think that i really am starting to hate you. you play with peoples emotions too much. you are so manipulating. you always play the victim. well guess what, no more with me. i really wish that i could cut you out of my life forever. its not like i would be losing anything. probably gaining seeing a...

haven't been to this thread in a long time. its weird going back and reading my old posts from over a year ago. i vaguely remember that time. the sad thing, is its been over a year and things aren't better, in fact, they are worse. i cant tell you the last time that i didnt drink. until this week, i...

why do i continue to lust after you? why do i think that it would be good to be with you? you arent available! i dont find you attractive. what is it about you??

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i cant pretend to care anymore!

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pissed
tired
annoyed
alone
frustrated

quit making excuses. its one thing after another. you need to take responsibility for yourself and grow up! i am not going to babysit you any longer! i cant do this anymore!!

i am scared. i dont know where to turn and the only alternative i can think of scares the shit out of me. i know that i need to do something soon, otherwise, it might be too late. I NEED HELP!

i really cant stand you. if i never had to speak to you again i wouldnt. you lie, manipulate people and have to have things your way. i am tired of making excuses for you and about you. i am done! i really just want to yell at you about everything, but i know that i cant because you are too fucking ...

i miss you so much. i cant believe that you are gone. i know that time will heal, but i dont want to forget you. i dont want to forget how precious life is. i wish that there was something that i could do. i want to fix things.

i dont know why i feel that i cant talk to you. you are one of my closest friends. i am just afraid that if i told you how i really feel and the things that i really struggle with that you would think differently of me. i want to open up to you. it isnt anything against you. i wish that things could...

i know that this is your day, but i dont think that you realize how much it affects me. i am one of your best friends. why dont you ask me. it really hurts that you consider other people but not me. i cant tell you what it is doing to me. it is just so hurtful!

have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. yes what had happened just before? just a lot of things building up. dealing with a lot of stress from family and friends having problems. feel like i have to be there for them, but dont know where to turn myself. then...

I use both alcohol and marijuana. however, i prefer alcohol. i can see you idea, but i dont think that trading one addiction for another is a good thing. i believe that both are bad for the body and can result in bad consequneces.

just my thought.

cant belive what i have come to...would rather stay at home and drink by myself that hang out with friends...just dont have an interest in anything anymore.

i'm not really sure. i realize (by other people telling me) that it is a problem but just not ready to deal with it. i have tried in the recent past to stop and succeeded at cutting down, but never stopping. i just am not at the point to think about stopping forever. i know, one day at a time, but i...

i dont know what to do with myself. i cant stop. i need help. i need to be able to talk to someone. but i have noone.

why does everyone think that i am ok?

HM, i think that it is good that you realize where you are. although you might not know what to do, realizing it is the first step. i am in the same position. i wish that i had some advice, but since i am where you are, i dont. hang in there. pdoc got angry with me today about the amount that i am d...