bus

right now i feel...

shaky
moody
clingy
lonely
unsure
slightly jealous
iffy

that kind of hurt. I wish you could see it. I wish you could see the demons I face, so you could rid me of them, with His gift. I wish you could understand the trouble I think I'm facing, so you could help me. Your help -is- His help, I can't hear Him any other way, so I cling to you. I'm so worried...

I'm afraid that you're really unhappy with being here. And while I can accept that, and know you have other things to do in the grand scheme of things, I'm afraid you'll leave to do them, and you won't remember me. Or, worse, that I won't truly remember you. It's not even a matter of remembering-- I...

peaceful
hopeful

I would only participate in that to spend more time with you, and I don't think that's right. Your theories on morality and integrity have rubbed off on me, and I've never been more grateful.

I don't trust you, and am really mad and hurt that you lied to me.

I'm finding faith.

I suspend judgement.

Where has that old friend gone? Lost in a February song Tell him it won't be long 'Til he opens his eyes, opens his eyes Where is that simple day, Before colors broke into shades? And how did I ever fade Into this life, into this life? And I never want to let you down Forgive me if I slip away When...

horses

music

sudoku

brother

my inspiration, aspiration, and desire to suceed and learn- cheesy, but true in every way

yay!!! thank you so much!

PMs ok. If you really want to. I feel so stupid. Because I'm taking advanced classes, I'm making my brother feel bad- math was always his subject, but now his sister four years his younger, three grades behind, is taking a class one level behind him. I feel like I shouldn't be challenging myself if...

I feel that way, too. I truly believe I'm ugly and don't understand how certain people can think I'm pretty/beautiful let alone mediocre. So, yes, I think that way, also.

happy, overall content. wishful.

though, kinda fat.

PM's ok. I want people to hate me, yet I'm so scared of being alone. I'm so scared of judgement that I stop myself from doing things. I hate Hawaiian people who think that Hawaii is theirs and that haoles should leave. I know it's racist, but I can't help it. :oops: I think I like someone else. I ma...

I've talked to five people on the phone. I never could have done that.

Also, I'm facing my fears about N coming back. It's somehting I'm really nervous about, but I'm learning how to deal with it.