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And these fingertips
Will never run through your skin
And those bright blue eyes
Can only meet mine across the room
Filled with people that are less important than you


I miss my boyfriend, you know, being my boyfriend.

I'm proud of myself for keeping my cool with my ex even though he's been a real dick by sleeping with another girl so soon.

There's no point in acting up and losing him as my best friend, he's like my family. Too much.

I'm proud for just still trooping on despite everything.

Numb, washed out.

I wish to be able to reconcile with my ex. I can't stand the thought that my struggling with my mental health has caused our break-up. It isn't fair. I wish for relief from this current onslaught. I wish for Summer to come soon. I wish for better luck. I wish for happiness. I wish for the strength, ...

My problem is I'm just constantly up and down. One minute I think one thing then the next I think the exact opposite.
I just wish there were ways to get through it faster.

A lot of the things that happened with the break-up were worse than the break-up itself.

Sad, worn out from trying.

I still love you. In the way you love me but I'm still in love with you too.

I wish I could click rewind and tell you that and change things but even if you did love me sometimes love isn't enough. I don't know if you knew and now it's too late.

To tell you now would only make us both sad.

Also, is it better to force yourself to think of the positives and make yourself go through these processes or is it best to wait until you feel ready to sit and go through them? For example one thing I want to do is write all the things that were missing from our relationship that I needed and woul...

Everyone goes through them at some point and I think they'll always be intensely difficult. When you already have mountains of MH problems it's just one more thing on a pile of obstacles and it's just so much to deal with. My boyfriend broke up with me last Thursday. If anyone's heard me talk about ...

My creativity. My empathy. That I genuinely care about people and would feel horrid for being anything but kind. My insight. That I am quite eccentric and different and I've grown to accept it and embrace it. My sincerity, even if not always my open honesty. *bumps* I'm creative I try my best to lis...

Utterly miserable. Feel like the world is ending anyway.

Literally, like that calm before the storm with all the signs before everything ends in movies. Got this feeling of impending doom hanging over me.

Been buying things for my box! :D I got some VERY expensive tea. So I'll only use it on distraction box occasions making it special that way. I got some worry dolls. Somehow messed something up when getting them... They said they were like £2.50 then when I paid for them they ended up being like £16...

Shopping sprees are definitely destructive :olol: to get that real satisfaction while doing it you have to spend all your money and run up any store card you have! That's how it goes with me. That's more when I'm hypomanic. I don't ever really SI when I'm manic, not physically. I'm not a huge self h...

Lonely on here! This place has been really quiet over the last few days

Tired, faint.

Annoyed, at spammers. Why can't they just get a life.

^ Hey, I found my tarot cards. I might put them in there. It might be something different to try with meditation, especially if I feel like I can't clear my mind. :) Did you buy a new box or clear out an old one? I have boxes of DVDs that I probably need to clear out as I never use them so I could u...

I don't really do secrets... but I have kept a lot of things from my boyfriend. Involving my mental illness. And out sex life. I'm terrible at confrontations and I can't deal with that sort of thing, especially since for some stupid reason I lied to start off with. :shakehead: I feel horrible for do...

Been so emotional. I'm normally more dead than so teary but I can't stop crying today. So many people are having a hard time right now and I wish I could help. I have quite a few friends not doing so well and it's just making me so upset that they're having to go through this sort of thing too. :cry...

That one day I'll be able to get through everything and be able to just be myself and be happy.