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Thanks! No baby that month- but eventually! I'm nearing the halfway mark of this pregnancy!

The one thing that actually matters to me is that it worries my husband, I don't much care anymore what other people think. Unfortunately, it also makes me a bit resentful towards him (otherwise, I'm rarely angry at him) - he "stops" me from doing what I want just by caring. Whatever I do, some par...

I agree with the above posters.
I used to dissociate a lot and now that I'm off meds it's starting to come back and I'm noticing another Presence within me. My therapist says we can work to integrate us. I'm hoping he's right.
I definitely recommend bringing this up with a pdoc and/or therapist.

Today is my first day without lamicital in 12 years! (I've been tapering down with doctor's approval) It's been a tough transition- never know when depression and anxiety will smack me in the face... I had gotten used to being leveled out. Anyway- this has happened because my husband and I are wanti...

You're my best friend but sometimes you make me uncomfortable.

Thank you for not judging me.

I'm not okay today and I know I could tell you that but I'm sick of always having problems and I don't want to be "that friend". I'm sorry. I want to talk to you but I feel like a burden.
I feel like I should be better by now. I'm sorry.

I'm trying.

You're a shitty doctor. And now I'm scared to take xanax because I feel like I need to save it because how am I going to get more since you're such a shitty doctor. So now I've decided to cut instead of taking xanax because of this. Because of you. So I'm at work and I have my supplies and I don't t...

Why the fuck haven't ANY of you asked how I've been doing? what kind of family is this? You all make me so mad even though I love you. I miss you. But I bared my soul out with my public blog and NONE OF YOU even reached out to me. That hurts so much. And you all suck. And I"m disappointed in you all...

And thank you for understanding my scars but never bringing it up until I did.

Being alive is so fucking exhausting. It's taking so much effort to get through work. I hate everyone. Not really but really. Except you. I'm thankful for you. I don't think I could make it through the next two days without you here. If the meds aren't working I'd rather not take them. Shit. I'm alr...

I'm going to be interviewed soon by one of my coworker's daughter for a paper she is writing on Bipolar disorder. I"m a little nervous because I have no idea what she's going to ask or how it's going to go. But it has made me think about the last 10 years of being diagnosed with it (and the 2 or 3 y...

I'm glad you are leaving and I am not sorry for feeling that way. You should have left months ago. Working with you these last 2 years has tried every nerve in my body. I feel somewhat guilty in being happy with your retirement, but I think I feel guilty because I feel as though I should be expected...

im sorry for how much i hurt you. i'm sorry for the silence. i feel we don't have closure, but i'm not sure how to get any, at this point. you need to move on. clearly, i have. im not the one for you. i'm the one for him. move on, and find someone new. be happy. im sorry we didn't have closure. it's...

i hope this isn't a mistake you're making.

K: i was going to tell you tonight. but you canceld our study plans... so i couldn't tell you anything. Mom: i was going to try to tell you some stuff tonight.. but you came home sick and went straight to bed. to both of you: i was actually going to try to open up today. and i got shot down twice. i...

please stop being so blind to my pain. I haven't even tried hiding lately because I want you to notice.

i need your help.

i'm just too afraid to ask.

please.

i can't do this on my own anymore.

i just can't.

i worked up the nerve to ask my parents for help and to find a new therapist.

but i have to wait a few weeks.
so telling them right now was pointless.
and i'm still not getting help.

i ate breakfast.