bus

At a loss

So full of emotions but all good
Tearful but in a nice way

I'm trying to calm down

Crap
Alone
Bored

Don't ever fucking speak to me like that again.

how can you not realise you upset me?

I supported my friend with her SI and didn't feel triggered myself (much!)

I did things that made me feel really good about myself rather than veging out and feeling miserable because I put on weight.

:star: Worried that I'm making it all up and have taken it all too far :star: That my work mates will be angry at me :star: Guilty for making such a fuss :star: Tearful :star: Stupid :star: Like I've relenquished my independence :star: Like maybe there is something wrong and that's OK too :star: Bet...

Crying into my cup of tea and feel too stupid to phone anyone...

*Trigger-death* I just went into my wedding guest list and realised I needed to remove the name of my wonderful uncle. Simon & Fiona now reads just Fiona . It feels like I'm losing him all over again. I don't know why it's affecting me so badly. I can't reconcile this in my mind and I have no one to...

Pissed off with people in general

I feel fat, unattractive and self conscious. SO I went for a run earlier rather than eating my way through the morning. I'm worried N is going to drive me f***ing insane today and it will stress me out and annoy me to the extreme. SO I'm going to list the good things about MY life and when she is co...

When I was upset last night I spoke to my fiance about it even though I felt I didn't have the courage. He was so supportive it made me feel proud I had taken the positive step of talking rather than bottling it all up like usual

I started the day with a run even though I feel fat

:star: I had a shit day at work and didn't want to go to my second job tonight but I went and even tho it was pretty crazy I did it and it turned out to be quite fun. I felt urgy all day but going to work tonight and coming home to friends and chilling out has got me through the day. Well done me, I...

I don't want to go.
I want to run home to my mum and dad.
I don't want the responsibility anymore.
I'm fed up of doing this.
Please someone look after ME for a bit.

Scared but positive
Slightly hurt by a certain 'friend'
Urgy but trying to ward it off by doing other things