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Hey I read and it sounds really confusing and overwhelming for you right now. Whichever path you choose to take I hope you find what you're looking for. It is so unbearably hard to give up SI when it's all you've known, trusted and thought about for so long but sometimes it can be beneficial. I know...

meh is how I feel right now.
kinda pissed off
kinda miserable
very tired
uninterested

Calm
Chilled out

I know I have just posted the answers to the AFTER questions but that was for my slip on Wednesday. These are for my urges that I'm having now. I found doing them really helpful, I feel a bit better cos of them...thank you. :bfly: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? It will ...

have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. Yes cos the slip happened on Wednesday what had happened just before? Not much. Worked. Ate dinner...regualr stuff really what were you thinking and feeling? That I just HAD to do it. Felt desperate and uncontrollable. ...

*PMs ok*

It really terrifies me and makes me feel sick when people grab my ankles and everyone always laughs at me about it

(I admit it is kind of a silly thing to be scared of and i don't know why I am but no one gets how horrible it makes me feel)

lonely
quiet
heart feels empty but at the same time heavy...
i really miss my bf right now
i haven't heard from my friend and i'm worried about her
scared i mite hurt myself again

A few years ago and still occasionally it's Asleep by the Smiths Sing me to sleep Sing me to sleep I don't want to wake up on my own anymore... Now it's often the music form the soundtrack to Requiem For a Dream (Kronos Quartet and Clint Mansell) it is haunting and desperate and without hope... Also...

I just read Noughts and Crosses by Malorie Blackman as a girl in my reading group recommended it to me. I thought the idea was pretty damn good but didn't like her writing style and she kept re-using the same phrases plus for some weird reason I found it incredbily trigery :-? Now reading something ...

Worried for my friend and in a sick way grateful that I can take my mind off myself by looking after her.
Not so urgy today
hungover

triggery
nervy
edgy

kind of numb
bit sad and frustrated that I can't pin point the reason why

*PMs/comments ok* WATCH OUT! There's a bit of SI, SU, SA mentioned... :star: I will never forgive you for leaving me even though you came back, you hurt me more than I think you realise :star: I'm scared about starting a family in the future becaue I read somewhere that SIers are something like 44% ...

Kind of worthless
angry
upset
slightly violated
empty
sad
all in all pretty f*****g s**t and typically no one in my house has noticed...

Oh my god I LOVE louise rennison!! I even have a georgia nicholson wrist band that says 'mucho excitemondo' how cool is that?! Have you been on her website? It's vair vair cool...!

Ok I'm gona be really sad and geeky and put a quote, well it's a poem really from Perks of Being a Wallflower cos yes it is my all time fave book but also this poem is beautiful and in the book the main character gives it to his friend as part of his Christmas present...it makes sense in the book. S...

OOO I spend all day working with books so I'm muy excited about this thread!! The book that I find best for when I'm feeling happy or sad or shit...whatever is Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky. It sounds dead cheesey but it makes me feel better because it shows you that not everything ...