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*SI* (edited to put in trig)








...I haven't cut for 23 days...



...I've done other stuff instead though...


Funny how you haven't noticed

I know no one has added anything to this thread for a while but I wanted to.... Kiss Off by Violent Femmes I need someone a person to talk to someone who'd care to love could it be you could it be you situation gets rough then I start to panic it's not enough it's just a habit hey kid your sick well...

Every time you tell me to 'chin up' 'cheer up' or 'keep smiling' I want to kick your fucking head in. When that's the last thing you say to me on the phone I usually go quiet and it's cos I'm crying.

Being fairly new to BUS I have only just seen this thread. I haven't cried for so long (crying at books/films and TV adds doesn't count for me) I can't remember the last time I had a good, uninterupted cry and I really need to as I can feel it all welling up inside me like boiling water...I hate it....

Sometimes I wish you'd be a complete bastard to me just so I have an excuse to cut. The other day I thought about what I loved more-you or SI...I hate myself for it-I knew it was you but nevertheless, I still had to think about it, what does that say about my state of mind right now? I'm terrifed th...

I would think carefully before you break the confidence. Also, my experiecne with my mum and her sending me to our doctor was awful-I had 10 minutes to explain to a very unsympathetic woman what it had taken me 3 years to keep hidden from my friends and family. The doctor made it very clear that I w...

Excited about seeing my bf

What I wanted from my mum when she found out about my SI and never got was the feeling that what I did didn't mean she was disapointed in me or loved me any less. It's good to know that you care enough about your daughter to come here for support and it's also good that you are getting support yours...

:star: Popping bubble wrap (so satisfying!) :star: Little kids who want to tell you about stuff they like :star: Listening to grown up people talking about something they are really passionate about :star: When publishers send me free stuff at work :star: When you get really drunk and think you can ...

Tired
Stressing out at how much preparation I have to do for work tomorrow
Proud of myself that I was there for someone this morning who really needed me

I almost told you today

Tipsy
Like I want to si (BUT I'M NOT GOING TO)
Lonely
Like there's a big f*****g weight inside me, dragging me down and slowly choking me

*PMs/comments ok* OK, so this is what I wish I could say to my now ex best mate but I don't have the courage...here goes... I haven't been able to watch True Romance since you left cos it reminds me of you and that day when we sat at mine and watched it, quoting all the lines like the film buff lose...

In love...sickening but totally true

Hopeful

Sometimes I still hate you

Mixed emotions.
Relaxed
Nervy
Excited about seeing my bf
Scared cos he'll see that I had a slip
Hungry

Hi thanks for the reply, I wasn't actually expecting anyone to answer it so thanks! :D Yeah I know what the problem is I just need to try and change the way I think and deal with it! Quite easy then!! I've got the weekend off and I now don't have to travel up to my bfs so I plan to chill tomorrow an...

Sooo tired
Pleased that I don't have to work the weekend
Excited that my bf is coming to see me and I don't have to travel to his for once!
Bit urgy still though

Like there's a big knot in my stomach
stressed
numb

Weirdly jolly...although to be fair it might be the caffine and sugar I've pumped into myself all day to stay awake...
Jumpy