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It has not been a easy day for me,the anxiety has been so high that I have been crying :cry:. What is the coping space? I have not decided what to keep in my coping box yet,I am not sure. I like dolphins,butterflies,cats and hello kitty. I just can not make up mind yet. Thanks for the nice letter,ni...

I am soo sick of these panic attacks and the problem is that I want to SH and I am trying soo hard not too,which is increasing the panic attacks,and dealing with Borderline Personality Disorder is not easy for me and I do not know anyone else that has this disorders. I feel so alone and it is scarin...

I do not know what brings on the panic attack,sometimes I feel it is the need to do Sh,and I am trying very hard not to do it. I am taking Clonopin for my anxiety and it is 1mg four times a day,it makes me tired,but the attack makes me more tired. There are times that I do not know what is going on,...

I had a rough night last night,cause I had such a bad panic attack and I wanted to SH,so bad that I made myself go to bed,it was scary and there was not one here to help me get through it,but writing on the bus helped me alot. I take my medication for it,but I am so anxious all the time,cause I want...

I am feeling so anxious and I can not seem to relax,my doctor got me so upset,cause I slip and she made me feel worse than I did,before I saw here. I am afraid that if I do not post and try to relax,I might SH. I hate feeling scared and I do not like the feelings that I am having inside. I want to :...

How do I deal with my feelings,when my doctor tells me that I have to take responsibility for my SH,it was the hardest thing to hear,cause it makes me feel more angry and alone with my illness,which is Borderline Personality Disorder. I want to do SH,so instead I wrote on the bus.I feel like I am th...

Besides the SH,that I had two nights ago, I still fear that I might slip again and I am trying very hard not to.I bought myself a new box for my coping box,just need to get ideals to put things in it.My problem is my anxiety,cause when it gets to high,it is so much harder to cope and it is harder to...

I have been feeling guilty for slipping with SH,and I can not let the feeling go,it has been two weeks since I done anything. I get so anxious and I feel alone,I wrote in my journal and been doing a scape book,but the urge can be so strong that I feel out of control and I hate feeling this way.Does ...

I am on Clonazepam 4 times a day,and it is 1mg. I also have Borderline Personality Disorder,and it is so hard for me to stop, I am trying very hard and I feel like I am out of control when I do it,it is a scary feeling for me. Thanks for your suggestions. Each day I get scared that I might slip and ...

I do not like the way I am feeling,the urge to do SH,and I hate when I feel this way,try to cope with the anxiety of it,is real hard for me tonight,I am trying to relax and I am having a hard time,that is why I am posting tonight,cause I rather post then do SH,it has been 2 weeks since I have done a...

I am trying very hard not to do any SH,and it gets so hard for me,and the anxiety level is so high,cause I am trying so hard not to do SH,which is making the anxiety worse which ends up in a panic attack, I take medication for it,by my doctor,it helps,but trying to control it can be very hard. I hat...

I just wanted to say that I found your information that you put on the computer very helpful and I just wanted to say this Candy,you helped me alot before and I wanted to say thanks.You can PM me anytime. I like Hello Kitty also. Hang in there

Thanks for your post it helped me alot. I have a coping box,but I would like to make a another one that is better than what I have,any suggestions from anyone. It is hard not to do any SH,even when your mother is very verbally abusive and I hate what she says to me,even though I told her,it will nev...

HI this is Candy, I am having a hard time coping and it has been so hard for me to get back into my journal when I am home,it is like all I want to do is sleep. I have not done any SH for a week,but I have a hard time feeling proud of myself when i do not do it and feel guilty for doing so. I just n...

I like your coping box,it looks alot better than mine,and I need to add more stuff to it,just not sure yet.This is Candy and I am doing ok,could be better. great job!!!

It has been 2 weeks since I have done any SI,and the feelings are getting strong again,and I am trying very hard to control this,it is not easy.I am proud of myself for not doing any SI,but right now the feelings are getting strong,and I am getting nerves and afraid of what could happen tonight. I w...

I got a letter from you and I tried to write you,but the mail did not go through,I do not know what happen. I glad that you are doing ok,I had a rough time last night cause I could not sleep,but I did not do any self-harm to myself which I am proud of myself. I have not worked on my coping book or c...

I am glad that you are doing ok,I am sorry to hear that you are struggling with your eating disorder,I am still struggling with my SI issues,and I started the comfort book ,but have not started with my coping book,I am using a two notebooks with each of them,I am here if you need to talk,just Pm me ...

I have not done any SI for four days now and my therapist whats me to write down my feelings before it happen and after;plus what is bring me to that point. I have a rough doing that,cause at that time,SI just happens and it is hard to stop when SI starts. I am trying to make a coping book and a com...

I am not done any SI for two days now,and I have been using my coping skills and they are helping me,but I notice that weekends are the hardest.There is one person on the bus who has given me some good coping skills,and everyone else has been helping me too. My problem is trying to figure out what i...