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I picked mine because Yoshiki of X Japan composed some of those rare songs that make feel something when I'm in a state where I normally can't feel/think anything.

This doesn't work for me, but might work for others. Something my therapeut suggested:

+ Use fake blood to get the illusion of self harm.

+ Watch a really bloody horror movie.

+ And the ususal things like yoga, taking a walk and so on.

Personally I find the first two tips rather triggering.

I hate the way you cheated on me. You had to "fall in love" with her, right? You couldn't do anything, right? Well... Why didn't you just fucking STOP to meet her? Why didn't you stop to call her while I was in the next room, listening to your laughter? Asshole! I HATE YOU! But still... you're all t...

The thought of being in love again someday.
Music.
Art.
A better future.