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Im not pretty, im not thin I KNOW stop telling me how fat i am, stop asking me if si hurts yes it fucking hurts you fucking nob of course it hurts thats why its INJURY or HARM you stupid fucker. And yes i am fat, yes i am fucking hideous its my problem not yours just cause you have to put down anyon...

i wasnt flirting with him i think you have to actually like someone as a friend and think they're at least a tiny tiny tiny bit attractive but i dont he looks like a fucking mole and he has the personality of a fucking bean! Stop being so ignorant and thinking you're the only person in the world who...

had a horrible nightmare where my boyfriend beat me up last night, i hate myself for dreaming it, he is the sweetest most gentle guy ever and i dont know where it came from but i feel so fucking guilty for it.

i seem to have stopped sleeping. im getting maybe an hour a night. slowly going back to how i used to be when i couldnt sleep untill i si'd. fuck it, ill have to sleep at some point and im giving my blades to my boyfriend to look after so i wont have a choice

not terrible. feel like im in one constantly lately. even the good things are making me urgy.

last night i got one where i woke up unable to move and i couldnt breathe but that one never bothers me.

i only ever wanted to be loved

thats a good point actually.

dreams had been ok.

last night i dreamt that i was suffocating in nothing but white. Really bright white and i couldnt breathe. that was it i woke up pretty sharpish.

ive never been diagnosed with an ed before but i do restrict my food. struggling at the moment cause i've had tonsilitis and havent been able to eat for a week so im eating as little as possible at the moment cause i just dont get hungry,


woken up feeling like ive been severely beaten. ouch

I had a really weird dream last night, i invited taylar (girl i work with) to mine and we had a pizza with those cheesy bite things on it, she basically ate the whole thing and didnt leave any for me or my mom. I woke up next to theo and just wanted to hit him i was that mad lol. I didnt hit him tho...

worked out the coffin dream. I have a friend who reads into dreams and we worked out that it could be my mind expressing my depressed feelings (being in the coffin) but having a protective wall that stops me expressing how i feel (coffin wall) and all my other worries mounting up (mud from the buria...

don't remember last night's dream. Didnt get much sleep so its probably cause it was so disturbed.

new one last night running through the forest and there was someone after me. quite an energetic dream really ive woken up nackered

ill try that. When i was young i used to have a dream where i was being chased by these men about 5 of them. And my dad was superman and he was meant to save me but he failed every time. It would black out but there'd be bloodcurdling screams and when i was running away it was too hard to move my le...

thanks. i'd like to post some past dreams but im not sure theres any point as i dont have them anymore. just about my dad failing me as a child.

Last night. *Graphic* no control. I was in a coffin, it was so narrow it was as though it had been built around me. The only way to warn people i was alive was to bang on the lid cause i couldn't bang the sides, but there were nails put in from the outside so i couldnt bang because they were going t...

Please tell if this needs moving as it will be graphic but i really really need this thread right now cause i think i'm going mad and i need to get these nightmares out of my head to attempt not to have them again.. There will be SI SU and dissapointment and stuff in here. I'll try to label each dre...

i wish you'd never stopped me.

stop making me feel like shit. i feel low enough without you stamping me further into the ground.

I'm so sorry, I could've been better.

i've eaten today..