bus

all my bad feelings would improve if i could shake the ed. im trying.

feeling a little down but not feeling terrible
feeling ugly but boyfriend does say im beautiful.

just so you know.. you can also text the samaritans xx

Linkin Park - Crawling Crawling in my skin These wounds, they will not heal Fear is how I fall Confusing what is real There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface Consuming/confusing This lack of self-control I fear is never ending Controlling/I can't seem To find myself again My walls...

i planned not to eat anything at all yesterday, and i actually did eat. i broke the little promise i made to myself not to eat.

i ate 2 meals and some leftovers today

i ate yesterday. actually i ate LOADS and whilst i feel shite about it, i didnt try to purge.

i got through some really horrible urges last night, even though it was my own fault, im quite proud that i didnt give in

worthless
ashamed
hurt
stupid
anxious
depressed

im so sorry, i love you so much just please forgive me, i need you so bad. i know we're still together but im absolutely terrified im gonna do something wrong. i know after a few days things will get better i know we're strong enough for that. i just can't bear to think i've hurt you

vulnerable
frightened
sick
fat

my manager is impressed with me

god is a lie - wednesday 13 I've made a fist but I cannot knock upon that door 'Cause once I walk through it I won't be coming back no more It's strange how everything can change oh, so very fast Somewhere someone out there will always have the last laugh Just say a prayer for me, in case I forget A...

Garbage - Bleed Like Me Avalanche is sullen and too thin She starves herself to rid herself of sin And the kick is so divine when she sees bones beneath her skin And she says: Hey baby can you bleed like me? C'mon baby can you bleed like me Chris is all dressed up and acting coy Painted like a brand...

im doing really well at work

i managed to think of 5 things i like about myself

i still haven't Si'd

Celine Dion - All By Myself When I was young I never needed anyone And making love was just for fun Those days are gone Livin' alone I think of all the friends I've known When I dial the telephone Nobody's home All by myself Don't wanna be All by myself Anymore Hard to be sure Sometimes I feel so in...

i was afraid lee would find out

even though we're just friends i feel like i am/could fall for you. Being around you has gotten me over the worst of it with will as you've just looked after me instead of bitching about will. Please decide what you want this is killing me. I understand in a way why you've freaked out but im here if...