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School started today, my boyfriend's depressed because he's having a hard time finding a job, I'm trying to get a job, there's just too much going on. I'm stressed, which is one of my triggers, but I can't manage it at all. I can deal with sadness or anger without too many problems, but I cannot dea...

Growing up, my parents were pretty much emotionally distant, and never really cared about how I felt. If I did something wrong, I'd get hit. If I did it again, I'd get hit by a belt. Sometimes when I feel I've done something bad or something that my parents would punish me for, I SI and punish mysel...

I just feel so devastated and depressed right now. On Friday, my father told me that my grandfather had died in the hospital. I really miss my grandfather. He lived far away so I never got to see him much. But whenever I saw him, he was always wise and kind, telling me all sorts of useless trivia I'...

I'll draw around my scars, sometimes. Usually I do that when I'm bored and I'm lacking creativity. Sometimes the scars and the lines from the pen make sort of a pattern and make me inspired again. I'll second what Pink Spider said. If you have cuts around the scar, I'd just be careful with where you...

I've read that thread, and it gave me some good ideas. I'll be sure to keep them in mind. I'll have to remember what you said about people giving me help, mallie. Sometimes I feel selfish when I ask for help, but I guess I'm going to have to ignore it when I do ask. (Sorry if what I wrote doesn't ma...

Could your boyfriend help you at all? Maybe theres a councillor at school or someone like that you can talk to about the whole situation? It sounds rough for you - hang in there xx Monk I have to go to the doctor's in less than 2 weeks, and I'm really stressed out about it. I don't know her at all,...

Last night, at about 1 in the morning, I was feeling really happy. My boyfriend had just spent the day with me, and everything seemed to be going right for a change. Until my family came home: A - my stepdad B - my mom C - my halfsister When my parents came in, they played the messages on the answer...

The only thing that's wrong with seeing the school's counsellor is that tomorrow's the last day of school. I've talked to the guidance counsellor before because I was being bullied by a lot of people, and she's really nice and gives good advice. I just get so nervous though, talking to a counsellor ...

Nope, I don't have a counsellor or therapist. I don't have any medication for depression because I've been too afraid to get help from most people. As soon as I would be about ready to tell them, I'd just get all nervous and change the subject. Luckily, my suicidal feelings got a little bit better a...

Thanks for the quick reply, kreaTure! I managed to grab a few hours sleep last night after I got off bus, but I'm beginning to feel a little stressed. My history teacher said we could write some information from our study guides on a 3x5 notecard we could use during the final, and it really relieved...

I'm trying to sort through my emotions right now, so please bear with me. It's taking a lot of courage for me to post this, but I just want someone's help. Last week, I tried to commit suicide. Long story short, I realized it wasn't going to work when I was about half-way through with my plan. I was...

**WARNING: Possible SI triggers below.** NOTE TO MODs: I'm not sure if this is really appropriate, but I decided to take a chance and post it anyway instead of starting a new thread on the same topic. Well, my situation improved until today. Then it went all downhill again. I had to ask my mom a que...

Sorry for the really late reply (I've been occupied with schoolwork lately). Thanks for the suggestions everyone; they worked better than I thought they would! I tried not to worry about the phone thing, and luckily I got de-triggered and after a few days, I didn't care about the phone priviledges b...

I had no idea where to put this, but I just needed to let it out. So, I was on the computer typing a paper with my earphones in, and so I couldn't hear anything. I thought I heard something ringing, and it wasn't my earphones. I had a phone on my desk, so the next thing I did was answer it. My stepd...

I feel kind of stupid posting this, but stress has been something that's really been bothering me lately. One of my SI triggers is stress. I learned on Friday that my father and my stepmother aren't getting along well, and so my father had to get an apartment for a while. The apartment isn't a bad p...

I'm an insomniac too. Here's some of the stuff I do when I feel urged: -I get on the internet and read stories with happy endings. Or just something humorous. -I start planning what outfits I'm going to wear. Sometimes I even plan out the jewelery too. -I mix and match jewelery, seeing how different...

Ok, I was reading a magazine and it had an article about SI. Well, it was being extremely negative. Saying it was all just a fad and everyone who does it is doing it for attention. I'm not sure how it makes others feel, but it made me extremely angry. I was looking at some of the sources, and they w...

-I have a hard time trusting people -I keep a very strict schedule for myself - I wake up at 5 am and sleep at 1 am -I have a fear of food, I'm always embarassed to eat -Most of my dreams are just nightmares about my past -I can't remember a majority of my past, I only remember small pieces -My firs...