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Very anxious, hungry

I'm feeling rather.. disjointed right now. Like nothing is really connected, and everythings just far away. Having trouble putting things together in relation to each other.. like if I spend too much money on one thing I won't have enough for something else like food. That and just far away.. the wo...

I OD'd a while ago.. and it was really bad. I do not remember an entire week of time, my husband drove me to the hospital.. and went through check in, but by the time I actually got to a dr, I was "lethargic and unresponsive". I hallucinated, was restrained to a bed for *days*.. and while I remember...

* suicide/death trigger* * * * * * M & D, I wish both of you would die so I wouldn't have to worry about you anymore. I am so terrified every day that it will be the day I get the call that you've been murdered, you've OD'd on some drug, or you've finally committed suicide successfully. I could fina...

Please Comment - PM Me - I am afraid I don't love my husband for the right reasons. - I'm jealous of my family who aren't in recovery and 'get' to stay broken and never challenge their thoughts. *Sex Trigger* * * * * * - My husband is 27 years older than me, and is a father figure to me.. but I have...

It's all good.. writing it out helped a lot. Plus I ended up not self harming! I didn't get as much done as I wanted, and will still need to clean, but I did end up with getting a few things done (I literally ended up with like.. 6 bags of garbage http://i66.photobucket.com/albums/h276/DianneOnly/bl...

* How will this situation or feeling change if I hurt myself? The situation won't change. I still will be in this messy apartment, dealing with my husbands depression. All of those problems will be there. But for a short while, I won't feel as stressed.. Like it will calm me down enough to be able t...