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by kittyinthemiddle
Thu Jun 15, 2006 3:25 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!
Replies: 1666
Views: 67789

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i can't stop the lies. they pop into my head and come out my mouth and... i feel so ashamed, but i need them. i need to hide. i need to cover up all the mistakes and crap i've caused. SI * * * * * every time she tells me she's cut again i know i've failed her. i know i should've been there. i know s...
by kittyinthemiddle
Tue Apr 25, 2006 1:11 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!
Replies: 1666
Views: 67789

when i say i love you what i really mean is i'm in love with you.....
i'm scared i'll never know if you ever felt the same way about me. i'm even more scared that you do
by kittyinthemiddle
Fri Apr 21, 2006 6:04 am
Forum: coping
Topic: Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!
Replies: 1666
Views: 67789

SA i'm scared because i think i miss it... or some of it. i don't remember feeling this lonely then. when i see the last guy that sa-ed me all i think is i wish he still wanted me. my father is sick and there's a chance it might be serious... i keep catching myself imagining and hoping that it is. i...
by kittyinthemiddle
Sun Apr 09, 2006 8:51 am
Forum: coping
Topic: Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!
Replies: 1666
Views: 67789

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* i know what birthday present i wish i could give myself, but i know i couldn't do that to the people i care about. At least not today.
by kittyinthemiddle
Sun Apr 02, 2006 1:22 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!
Replies: 1666
Views: 67789

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i had a dream about us the other night. i know i shouldn't have and i shouldn't have even thought about us, but i did.
by kittyinthemiddle
Tue Mar 28, 2006 7:15 am
Forum: coping
Topic: Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!
Replies: 1666
Views: 67789

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SA







no one knows what he did. they called me a slut behind my back and he's a hero.
now i'm not sure myself.
by kittyinthemiddle
Fri Mar 24, 2006 11:33 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!
Replies: 1666
Views: 67789

i want him to stop telling me off for all my faults but at the same time i know it's all true. I hate him for hating me, but how can I feel that way when I hate myself too?
by kittyinthemiddle
Wed Mar 15, 2006 3:25 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!
Replies: 1666
Views: 67789

*i tell myself that i'm not controlled by them but deep down i know that when it's a choice between my habits and any other aspect of my life, the habits will always come first* *i don't love my father.* *I pretend i don't remember people who i know from the past because i know they won't remember m...
by kittyinthemiddle
Tue Mar 14, 2006 4:33 am
Forum: coping
Topic: Who do you talk to about your SI?
Replies: 44
Views: 1552

i have one friend IRL that i talk about it with. I only started talking about it with her a month ago because i found out she SIs and other stuff. I'm trying to get her here but no luck so far. Otherwise I've had a few different identities here on bus and on other forums. I'm trying to stick around ...
by kittyinthemiddle
Tue Mar 14, 2006 4:22 am
Forum: coping
Topic: How do you feel about your scars?
Replies: 113
Views: 6883

looking at my scars reminds me of everything that led me to them so in that way i don't like them... But i've always had scars (i fell through a window when i was 1 and got 80 stitches in my face) so i guess i'm numbed to it all a bit coz've the teasing and bullying i've experienced with those ones....
by kittyinthemiddle
Tue Mar 14, 2006 4:10 am
Forum: coping
Topic: I'm proud of myself today because....
Replies: 1894
Views: 84031

i'm proud of myself today because i ate lunch and told myself i wasn't failing by doing so. i don't know if i beleive myself
by kittyinthemiddle
Tue Mar 14, 2006 3:56 am
Forum: coping
Topic: Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!
Replies: 1666
Views: 67789

~ i've lied to everyone i know so often that i don't think i know the truth myself ~ ~ i missed the most important phone call of my life. now i'm afraid of sleeping ~ ~ i think i'm breaking her when all i really i want to do in the world is give her the pieces to show her how to put it back together...
by kittyinthemiddle
Sat Mar 11, 2006 3:58 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: What song describes how you're feeling?
Replies: 1417
Views: 68295

'Opened Once' -jeff buckley- I once was open And one with a travelling heart I loved this sweet guy Just like the fiction Rushing in your riverbed Arise like applause in my head And in the half-light Where we both stand This is the half-light See me as I am Just like the ocean Always in love with th...