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Thinking back over my Ed behaviour it's been going on for years.

I feel I should really be a lot smaller.

I don't want to have my secrets let known.

I don't want secrets either.

Worried,

Reckless.

odd.

indifferent

sick and dizzy

Hungry and guilty for it

I wrote that.
But before did something that went very against it.
I should to the right thing, but I want the wrong thing.
How will I resist it when I don't have it me to throw it out?

I just hate how much I want it.
Whether I not use it or not.

sad

Just achey

dizzy

After a while the little things that spring won't affect you so much.

Now it seems impossible that things will truly be better.
It's more, the hard sad times will decrease.
take care.xx

I want that

I think I might just get it too.

Then I'll be sorry.

Again.

ashamed.

I don't know which way to pick, what's right or what I want.

Over full.
Heavy.

angry with myself.

Can't I just be open? What's wrong with me?

If I went back in time...I don't know if I'd change things to better or worse...