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HOW? Everytime I try something it seams to back fire on me. I try so hard to change my thought process and can't do you have any suggestions on how I can change it?

"fear of commitment stopped me. " commitment to what? for me it's often more a fear/unwillingness to disclose... knowing that quite possibly i'd end up feeling obligated to keep myself safe if they knew... etc Basically if I told the wrong person I was afraid I would have to be placed back in the h...

Why do you visit before and after? I want to own up to my actions not only as an SIer but also as an adult which I need to become. What do you get out of it? I learn about myself and my tendiencies What prompts you to think posting might be a good idea? i.e. what thought, feeling, or what happens L...

I SIed On Saturday night, and again Sunday Night. It had been about 1 month since last time. have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. Yeah but I need to change it. It wasn't bad what had happened just before? I was cleaning my room and found my old knife that ...

I got through a bad night last night without cutting. I'm Proud Of Myself For that.

Cause I just scored a 94 on my math test. and got through my psych test today.

I wish my sister would open her eyes to that loser...

I wish I could rely on myself rather than meds or therapies OR FRIENDS

I wish I wasn't so lazy

I WISH I COULD HAVE ONE LAST TALK WITH MY FATHER.

Do you use coping methods (healthy ones... :wink: ) in combination or just on their own? I try to write or talk about my problems before and afterwards. And think of my frineds. Name something that helps you to cope beginning with the letter 'A'. A long sleep Do you see coping ideas as ways to bani...

I wanna stop because it has become an out of con trol situation... it used to be to get rid of emotional pain now it is to get attention and pity. I'm using it as a clutch and need to stop.

although it helps remove pain.

It all depends on my mood. When I'm mad I don't care people see I just tell them I got hurt at work or by an animal or something but my friends Know the truth and that bothers me...I lie to my family somethimes they believe me sometimes they don't. When I'm happy I try to be very careful at what I w...

i am... :blush: An EMT, A good friend, looking for attention, a SI, Caring, Sensative worthless hurting, i am not... :wink: A ho, A leader, Lazy, Stupid Crazy, a bitch i feel... :x Alone, like cutting, sad, depressed, like crying i want... :roll: A friend, to stop SI To have hope and faith, to be lo...