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I haven't written here in a while because I'm embarrassed. Last Saturday I SI'd. It was a real bad weekend and in spite of all of my best efforts I still did it. Of course I'm feeling better now. I'm back to work, and my therapist does not know -- I can't risk loosing him. Not now. I let myself down...

...Because I have a safety contract with my therapist and I don't want to break it. ...Because I have a lot of Dr's appointments and I don't want them to see any new cuts or scars. So...I'm writing this post and hoping the urge will pass. I'll also try listening to my favorite music and drawing and ...

Thanks to those who welcomed me. Your messages made my day. It's nice knowing that I am not alone with all of this. Thank you again for your support.

Sandy

I'm Sandy, and I haven't SI since June of 2005, and every day is a struggle. I am proud of my achievement, but I am afraid that I will slip up and wreck everything that I have worked so hard. I'm in therapy. I journal, draw (and I'm a lowsy artist). I take hot baths, read, or listen to music, or put...