bus

pretty stupid
unattractive and pretty stupid
... yes. acutally fat and pretty stupid.
like I've lost my "glow"

empatyless (why should I care about other peoples problems?)
jealous, (my friends have other friends than me, i dislikes them)
empty but floating

because I had people around me who hate when i do it

unimportant, frozen out and of no use.
pathetic, over analycing manipulation bitch who drinks way to much
worthles, angry and frustrated. ALONE and distrustful and confused.
stressed and "slow high speed"

A: Why can't you ever hug me when we see eachother?! I wish you could express your appreciation of me a little more often, and in for real, not through silly jokes about how small, helpless and meaningless my existence is. really, I laugh about it, and I think its funny at the times you, "B" and I a...

:o 15 Fucking days! I don't make it even 15 hours! :o I'm proud because I cant find any feelings (through I search and search) for a former "lover" i happend to have sex with on new years eve (two days ago). I thought I would have some sort of "affection backlash" it it ever happend again, but no, i...

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... right now i nfeel like cutting deep and .. like dark, i feel like feeling darl. red amd warm blood dripping my myb skin.

wish i did feel the blood las if it was tears.


i fucking hate the concept og new ear-... shot it. I want to drown