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This involves bl**d, but no SH .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. Well I had my period today and I usually SI when I'm in the bathroom. I was really struggling and I was changing my tampon and had an idea. (I know this is disgusting, but it felt good at the time.) .. .. So I started wiping my dirty tampon a...

I started throwing myself around when I was about 7. I'd pretend that I was in a fight and that I was getting bashed. I throw myself on the floor, bang my head against walls and twist my body. Once it was over I felt calmer and the relief was instant. I've only just learnt (a matter of weeks) that I...

I understand.
I also have a child and I for me that seems to make it worse as you have someone that is relying on you.
there's lots of stuff around the boards on coping.

For me I use music, writing, oil/insence burning, going for walks, coming on the net and talking.

A bit of both, but it really depends on what kind of mood I'm in before I read the post.
I find the surveys and questionaires really helpful and other things that aren't even directly related to SI triggering.

I'm new here and this board looks great! I can't get to know everyone!

Great site!

I made it all up, now I can't remember which bits were lies and which bits were truth.

That's a really cool idea!
I might try and do that...

What about a stress ball?

I wish I could be happy
I wish I could figure myself out
I wish he'd leave us alone
I wish they'd understand what they do
I wish people would try to understand me
I wish people would stop judging everyone

J: "Grow the f*** up, stop being so childish and demanding. Your tantrums are worse than my 3 year olds" A: "Stop letting everyone walk all over you" C: "Thanks for being there ****** :x R: "Leave us the f*** alone, I know why you doing this, I'm not stupid" "I'm not fat, I'm not stupid and I'm not ...

Mum: "I'm sorry for dismissing your problems and issues and never noticing you were there" Dad: "I'm sorry I cant swallow my pride" Brother: "I'm sorry I was never there for you" C: "I'm sorry I walked away from you when you needed me... again and again...." R: "I'm sorry I have to be so spiteful, I...

Nervous and Anxious.
Waiting it out...

:star: What motivates you to try a coping thing instead of si'ing? Because I want to be healthy minded :star: If you had to move twice to cope i.e. move your body, what would you do? I'd put both of my arms behind my back and hold my hands together :star: It's three o'clock in the afternoon and you ...

Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? To numb the 'pain' so I can focus on everyday things. What has brought me to this point? Can't really say yet Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then? yes but not this far, I just avoided it until I couldn't any more What I hav...

I didn't because I've made it a few days without and didn't want the shame to come back.
I avoided the issue and eventually jotted some stuff down on paper.... like a release.