bus

shitty
alone
unloved
empty
depressed
worried

*language* I carved a smile into my arm, took a photo of it and emailed it to a bitch along with the message: have a nice and happy day and I walked around the rockridge bart and telegraph at midnight on sunday hoping someone would shoot me my friend has the same T as me but I hate her and she likes...

I wish I was thin
I wish people would love me
I wish I wasn't so insecure and needy
I wish my evil T would go away!
I wish I had had the courage to walk down the street in short sleeves

hey
having a friend die sounds awful. is there anyone else you can talk to besides your T?

and don't feel bad about the SI, because that usually (or at least for me) makes you want to SI more.

I can't stay mad at my friends because i'm afraid they'll stop liking me

i love my scars but i hate other people seeing them so i hide them most of the time. i dont think anyone at work knows i si so i always wear long sleeves even when its very hot. on a personal level i think of them as part of me, they make my arms feel textured and i like stroking thekm. i guess i'm...

PMs are very cool, someone talk to me
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I'm very afraid of posting here because I don't think people like me and want me.

This is the third most suicidal I've ever felt.

I hate myself for being so unselfconfidant.
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*assorted trigs, etc.* sorry if this is too long... PMs fine I'm good at making friends. I'm better at losing them. All I want is to be touched I want a bf so badly but no one notices me I often wonder how many people would notice if I killed myself and stopped coming to school. Not too many, I thin...