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j- i'm sorry i lied, but i just wasn't up to fighting with you.

j- i'm so sorry. it was a slip i promise. just a slip

I HATE YOU.

i took the underscore thing out of my name and tried logging in with chicken and with my password but i can't get in, it says my username or password is invalid.

am i doing something wrong?

mom and dad - i can not deal with the therapy you put me in. only you can make it stop. so make it stop now. i hate being so helpless. all i can do to feel like i am accomplishing something is to cut and cut and cut until there is nothing left. i need some sort of help and i am not talking about the...

joins the crying. i can't cry in real life and i hurt. thank goodness for virtual tears. :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :swimhelp: :swimhelp: :swimhelp: :swimhelp: :swimhelp: :swimhelp: :swimhelp: :swimhelp: :swimhelp: ...

Dad- Please stop pretending that everything is okay. keeping up this act just to please you is so painful it is almost creating more depression. No, i'm not happy. No, i can't just choose to be happy and accomplish it. No, just because you are reading a book on parenting doesn't make you are a good ...

yay! so glad you decided to do this! :redstar: i don't want anymore scars :redstar: i want to find a coping mechanism with a feeling of releif that last long term :redstar: i want to be able to look my mom in the eyes and tell her that i have stopped for real :redstar: i want to grow up to be an act...

Dad- if you don't want me, just tell me, i'll be glad to go. like i don't do enough damage to myself, i need your help! go ahead add it to the list of screw ups, but be caresul you are lible to run out of room on the page soon if you scream at me every time i leave my room of course i will haul up i...

mind if i take another? * * * * mild si sh * * * * JUST CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE! :hmad: LIKE I DON'T HURT MYSELF ENOUGH WITHOUT YOUR HELP! :agrue: YOU MAKE ME FEEL LIKE NOTHING! WORTHLESS NOTHING! :bad-words: AHHH! :argggh: * * * done with trigg warnings * * * nice to get that out of my system! oh and...

(I can fake a smile) (Maybe) (Gonna blow) (just let it out)

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Thanks I needed that. Brilliant post, by the way. I'm feeling better already.