bus

scared.

cold.

tired.

want to hibernate.

Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? i'm scared. tomorrow at work is going to be hard and i don't know if i can deal with it. i want something to help get me through tomorrow & i feel like its too late to do anything useful. Have I been here before? What did I do ...

*sniffle*

..or else you can borrow my lovely lilac short-sleeved tunic & go work in the old folks home instead of me for a bit....

..no? damn, i wanted a holiday!

k
x

Yay, well done!

i am proud of myself today because i did well in my practical class this morning

k
x

very very tired.
cold
shaky

bananas.

yes, bananas make me happy!

cats
my fishies
chocolate
pyjamas
friends
big warm hugs
beer!

i want to hurt myself so bad that everyone will see i need help.

i want someone to look after me.

M - i'm not ok, i feel like i'm breaking. please hold me, please let me know you love me. i feel like you're so far away at the moment.

lonely.
like i'm drowning.
ugly.
failure

i am...
tired
lonely
alive

i am not...
ugly
evil
useless
unloveable

i feel...
overwhealmed
useless
rushed

i want...
to hide
to sh


i need...
to study!
to shower
to get on with things

i have...
a nice warm home
friends
God


i love...
my bf
my friends


i hate...
depression

i wish life wasn't so complicated.
i wish i knew what to do.
i wish i wasn't me.

i didn't cos i didn't want to face all the questions and disappointed looks from my boyfriend when he found out.