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Thanks for your reply Mallie - you raised some good questions, and I am having a good think about the answers.

Cheers x

have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. all taken care of. what had happened just before? I had just made myself throw up after eating more than usual - only the second time I've ever done this, and the first time was a week ago. Was watching 'Secretary' too...

I used to be a bit obsessive-compulsive so maybe that's why the ritual is important, but I grew out of that phase a loooong time ago. Other pleasurable activities that give me escape? Well: 1) going to live gigs. I love bands, go whenever I can afford to. 2) driving way too fast in my car on a sunny...

what had happened just before? spoke to my parents on the phone what were you thinking and feeling? was really looking forward to the SH, hadn't done it in such a long time. I made a bit of a ceremony around it - lit candles, ran a bubble bath, put on my favourite Suede tracks. wanted to make it as...

You're all fab x

The more I think about this, I think it is a case of the straw breaking the camel's back, and all the past stuff never really goes away.

Thanks for your replies, means a lot x

Lately I've been finding that I get the urge to SI over something incredibly trivial, maybe because I can't decide what to wear or because I've forgotten my lunch or something. Which is ridiculous really when there are so many people on this board in terrible circumstances who are suffering immense ...

I'm crying because I'm alone and invisible

I came home after a really bad day and went straight upstairs with the intention to SI, but there was a letter waiting for me from my 11 year old niece on pink Hello Kitty paper. She wrote that she loves me loads, so I cried and went to bed instead.

Good for you. Sounds like you have a good plan that will work for you. I do hope to see you on the board from time to to time but understand completely that sometimes it is too much. Glad your feeling well. Cheers! I do realise however that this means I am going to be one of those annoyingly chirpy...

I don't talk about it with anyone, nobody knows. It's my secret, and I want to keep it that way. I know that my friends would worry and my family wouldn't know how to deal with it. It's been really hard actually coming onto this site because it's an admission of what I do, but I have been kind to my...

Just in case anyone was wondering, I've made the decision only to come onto these boards when I am feeling ok and am able to make rational decisions, I've worked out that if I'm emotional or down then they're not a good thing for me. Also, when I feel like that all I do is go on about myself, wherea...

I think this is good, helps identify where the gaps in coping are so we can work on them. Name: Sarah Are you currently trying to stop or reduce SI: Trying not to start again If so what is your motivation: Know I have to find other ways of coping Favorite coping skills: Long walks. By the time you g...

This is such an interesting topic. Don't know how much you all know about dreaming, so here's what I know... The reason nightmares can leave you feeling so unsettled is because your brain can't tell the difference between what happens in your sleep, and what happens in waking life. This is why if yo...

I feel the need to defend the EMOs! They're messed up too if they SH just to fit in, and I suspect some of them were probably doing it already. But let's hope it's just a phase and the EMOs won't be cool for much longer. In Tokyo, Japan, in the Harajuku district (fashion central) it was cool for a ...

:star: Advent calendars and fairy wings! When I feel a bit down I wear my fairy wings (in rainbow colours) around the house. Surely even just having an advent calendar (a chocolate one of course) can get you through December at the least? Then maybe you could buy some advent calendars in the sales ...

It's turned colder here, and my first thought was that I can wear long sleeves all the time, would be easy to SI. Got to stop thinking like this...

Cheers everyone for your input. I think partly the issue is that here on these boards we "belong", other people understand us because they're going through very similar things to what we are. But does it follow then that if we stopped we wouldn't feel that we belonged anymore? I don't know, ramblin...

Hi - I wandered in here yesterday because SH has been on my mind for a while, wanted to see what other people said but remain anonymous. Some of it I find really helpful (the idea of drawing on yourself in red marker pen is great!), but I have to admit that when I start empathizing with some of the ...