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i cant do this i dont know why i thought i could, why cant i just disappear, i mean come on no-one would even fucking notice until i dodnt turn up for work and even then it would take them ages to figure it out.

not ok, isolated, hurting

why do i put up with ur shit! i am there for u at 3am when ur hurting but when i txt you at a reasonable hour you dont wanna know!!!

exhausted

thats not fair, im there for u all the blummin time but the one time i ask for help where are u?

helpless

fed up
ambivalent
agitated
anxious
unsettled

ANGRY

thats not fucking fair!!! they are good people they dont deserve that!!! how could you let that happen!!!

I am struggling to find reasons to carry on

Why is it always me who initiates things? Why can't u?

I never thought YOU would give up on me.

Please don't make me regret opening up.

I don't kno how much more I can take I don't kno if I can hold on much longer. X

I don't understand u kno wo I'm like, u kno I can't take the stress, u kno I don't want to leave! I thought u of all people understood, If u don't then sod it I give in, I'm done, I won't fight to save myself anymore

U are amazing and i love.u but u havn't half made me feel vulnerable

You are amazing! I hope u kno how much I apreciate u!

i am... -strugling -hurting -tired i am not... -wanted -ok i feel... -sick -dejected -alone i want... -someone to care -to feel ok i need... -someone to care -to not hurt myself today i have... -a headache i love... -weeks off i hate... everything at the moment - especially myself :(

i know its not ur 'role' but ur the only person i trust right now and i need u to tell me itll be ok