bus

Just fuck off. Have some fucking consideration.

shit to the extreme

Before: Before You Self-Harm write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? If I purge, my weight won't actually change, I'll just feel like shit. If I SI, everything will be the same, but I will be hurting. ...

Went to centrelink after uni and sussed out what I need to do and then did half of the forms. Did 2 hours of study. Drank more than 2L of water. Made a promise to have a meal while M was out and did it. Made a big wall planner. Read 2 boring chapters that I needed to. Bought some stationery. Printed...

I went to my first ever day at uni.

Work your magic little dollies!

I'm worried that I will be too scared to get to know anyone at uni. I'm worried that I'll come across as standoffish or arrogant, but I'm really just freaking out...

Everyone is awesome :) Today I... Picked up my electoral enrollment forms. Printed stuff for uni. Bought a really nice skirt from an op-shop for $5 :) Bought a birthday present. Worked at a friend's shop, and learnt how to do lots of stuff there. Cleaned said shop a fair bit. Helped out at work, tho...

Totally overwhelmed and freaked out.

*sniff* I wish I could cry irl.

I'm sending love to all of you, it breaks my heart to see so many lovely people suffering

I'm not going to let your stupid actions affect my eating.

Ok. It's 2pm but I'm feeling useless and need to put this down. I have: Broken down 5 costumes for tonight. Got to and completed the radio interview this morning. Learnt the sonnet off by heart. (Touch wood..) Finally called my sister. Partially set up the sound rig for the tech run. Will update whe...

I just wanted to add that I realise this is quite similar to the 'I'm proud of myself today because' thread. I suppose I just mean for this to be about more concrete things, almost like ticking off a 'to do' list. I'm not always proud that I've done my washing, but i've still accomplished something....

I seriously distracted myself.

Really cold!

Okey doke.
Today I have:
Done a band photoshoot, finally.
Organised my evening.
Picked up my meds.
Done the dishes and got my washing in.

Slow day, but that's ok

I need a space where I can jot down the things that I have achieved during the day. It really helps me with the 'I've wasted a day, I've achieved nothing!' thoughts. Depending on how I'm feeling, they could be anything from 'I cleaned my entire house, made 3 phonecalls, paid my bills, played violin ...

I'm worried that I'm going in the wrong direction.
I'm worried that there isn't a right direction.
I'm worried about the production.
I'm worried about people reacting to scars.
I'm worried about the flight.
I'm worried about everything.

I don't know what's going on with me. I'm losing it a bit, but not enough so that I don't care. I just hate everything and everything and everyone right now, especially me.

I'm worried that things will never be ok.