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[Angel12]

[*]how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?
It relieves the tension in my head and, just like a release , crazy i know,,

*]what will hurting myself bring to the situation?
Release , i hate myself so much,

what will it take away from the situation?
I haven,t hurt myself or od in a good while , so i would be hurting my family,my children,

*]how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?
i just want to not hate myself so much and want people to love me, i cant really answer how i would feel in the long run because well i'd feel totally shit , back to A&E, police courts just total chaos,

[*]if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?
It never lasts for long then i'd just block it out by drinking , like a vicious circle.

*]what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?
This is my first time to do these questions and i'm kinda nervous but a being here is helping , I guess i could go to sleep. I have a knack of being able to sleep if i feel like sh

[*]how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself ?
I'll feel totally ashamed and angry , like a failure

how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?
Proud of myself , even though if i say to my family that i haven't cut in a while now they just say things like what do you want a medal etc, which hurts alot

[*]what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?[/list]

[*]How do I feel right now?
angry

b]How will I feel when I am hurting myself? [/b
angry at myself for being a horrible person, and guilty for the way i was to people ,an embarressement to my family.

[*]How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
relief, then disgusted at myself after

[*]Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
don't know how, always drank, cut od now i smoke alot of weed which calms me down but i want to life not in a haze.


[*]Do I need to hurt myself? [/list]
yes

*]Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?
just feel so depressed and argg.. too much going on and need to release the pain .
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[sixtyfoothigh]

Hi angel12,

Even if your family aren't supportive when you manage to beat an urge, you could get support here. Lots of people post when they've done well and get good feed back.

I hope you're ok.

S x