guilt about calorie intake and needing something to do
Posted: Fri May 08, 2015 12:16 am
have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait.
i have taken care of them
what had happened just before?
i was thinking about dinner. i was bored and felt the need to self soothe, but i guess in my mind you can't just self soothe for no reason, you can't just take care of yourself for no reason, so i self harmed
what were you thinking and feeling?
i thought i needed to baby myself, but i needed a reason
why did you end up hurting yourself then instead of some other time? was there an event that was the final straw? what was it?
it was impulsive. i had my box of tools out so i could write DBT skills on it and i just thought "maybe i should SH so i will have a reason to self soothe"
how did the situation get to the final straw stage? trace it back through the events that led up to the last event. look for some point at which you could have made a different decision and not arrived at the final straw.
it was impulsive. i could take care of myself when i don't feel the need so that when i do feel the need i don't resort to self harm
were there outside factors like drugs, alcohol, being off your meds, lack of sleep, etc? can you address those in the future? how?
i guess i'm somewhat tired, unbalanced eating (restricting), being off my lithium (having not had the prescription yet) intense loneliness
what other ways of coping did you try besides self-harm? how well did they work?
i tried online window shopping and it distracted me for a bit until i got bored and antsy and overwhelmed
in retrospect, are there coping methods that you now realize might have helped? what were they?
i could have made crafts, avoided being alone, colored with my brother, played video games with my brother, done a tarot reading, played solitaire...
name at least two things you will do to help yourself remember those coping methods if you end up in this situation again.
i will leave my DBT skills box where i can see it instead of under my bed
i will snap a rubber band when i want to self harm
how do you feel about the situation that led to self-harm now? is it resolved? if not, what are some steps you might take toward resolution?
it is not resolved, i still feel lonely and neglected and i still need to be babied
are you likely to be in that emotional place again? how will you recognize it when you're in that situation?
i will recognize it by feelings of helplessness, feelings of isolation, loneliness, boredom
what will you try before you resort to self-harm if you're in that situation again? list three specific things you will commit to trying.
exercising (yoga, pilates, weights)
drawing my feelings
pampering myself with a spa night
About Opportunities to SI
Opportunity to Self-Harm seems to be a common theme. Think about why opportunities are important to slips and learn why opportunity is important to you.
What made that opportunity more appealing than any other?
because i already had the tools out, all i needed to do was use them
Did you make an opportunity or was it there for the taking?
it was there for the taking
What would you have done if there was no opportunity, how would you have handled your urge?
i would have probably done something else
If there had been no opportunity would your urge to self-harm have increased or decreased?
decreased
What constitutes opportunity for you? Being alone? having new tools? waiting for the right feeling?
being alone, having tools, being bored/having intense emotions
If your opportunties were taken away, how would you feel?
i would feel "some type of way"
i have taken care of them
what had happened just before?
i was thinking about dinner. i was bored and felt the need to self soothe, but i guess in my mind you can't just self soothe for no reason, you can't just take care of yourself for no reason, so i self harmed
what were you thinking and feeling?
i thought i needed to baby myself, but i needed a reason
why did you end up hurting yourself then instead of some other time? was there an event that was the final straw? what was it?
it was impulsive. i had my box of tools out so i could write DBT skills on it and i just thought "maybe i should SH so i will have a reason to self soothe"
how did the situation get to the final straw stage? trace it back through the events that led up to the last event. look for some point at which you could have made a different decision and not arrived at the final straw.
it was impulsive. i could take care of myself when i don't feel the need so that when i do feel the need i don't resort to self harm
were there outside factors like drugs, alcohol, being off your meds, lack of sleep, etc? can you address those in the future? how?
i guess i'm somewhat tired, unbalanced eating (restricting), being off my lithium (having not had the prescription yet) intense loneliness
what other ways of coping did you try besides self-harm? how well did they work?
i tried online window shopping and it distracted me for a bit until i got bored and antsy and overwhelmed
in retrospect, are there coping methods that you now realize might have helped? what were they?
i could have made crafts, avoided being alone, colored with my brother, played video games with my brother, done a tarot reading, played solitaire...
name at least two things you will do to help yourself remember those coping methods if you end up in this situation again.
i will leave my DBT skills box where i can see it instead of under my bed
i will snap a rubber band when i want to self harm
how do you feel about the situation that led to self-harm now? is it resolved? if not, what are some steps you might take toward resolution?
it is not resolved, i still feel lonely and neglected and i still need to be babied
are you likely to be in that emotional place again? how will you recognize it when you're in that situation?
i will recognize it by feelings of helplessness, feelings of isolation, loneliness, boredom
what will you try before you resort to self-harm if you're in that situation again? list three specific things you will commit to trying.
exercising (yoga, pilates, weights)
drawing my feelings
pampering myself with a spa night
About Opportunities to SI
Opportunity to Self-Harm seems to be a common theme. Think about why opportunities are important to slips and learn why opportunity is important to you.
What made that opportunity more appealing than any other?
because i already had the tools out, all i needed to do was use them
Did you make an opportunity or was it there for the taking?
it was there for the taking
What would you have done if there was no opportunity, how would you have handled your urge?
i would have probably done something else
If there had been no opportunity would your urge to self-harm have increased or decreased?
decreased
What constitutes opportunity for you? Being alone? having new tools? waiting for the right feeling?
being alone, having tools, being bored/having intense emotions
If your opportunties were taken away, how would you feel?
i would feel "some type of way"