Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by HanHanny » Mon Apr 27, 2009 6:43 pm

I don't think I'm sexually attracted to men at all.
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Post by Aly » Mon Apr 27, 2009 8:56 pm

I don´t think I miss you that much, especially when you whinge about the same thing over and over. But, I do love you. And it makes me smile to talk to you. And I am looking forward to seeing you again.



I miss you both a ridiculous amount, but I will be back soon. And I am so happy, even though I wish you could also be here.

It made me so happy when you said "I love you more than all the others". I love being your little girl. I love that I am making you proud. It makes me feel I can be proud of myself.

It´s no secret, but I love you both so much!
The wind and I, we speak the same, but he don’t hear so well.
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.


If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure...

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Post by vampirelover » Mon Apr 27, 2009 8:58 pm

in a twisted way i am glad my dad is worried about me as although he is upset aleast i know he cares
longest with no slips - 2 years , 6 months
time since last slip : 2 days

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Post by steady hands » Tue Apr 28, 2009 4:21 am

adamson wrote:
sidvicious1903 wrote:No one my age even knows who the hell john coltrane is.
You're not the only one :D

hell yes.
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Post by zazie » Tue Apr 28, 2009 5:17 am

I am somewhat tempted by every self-destructive thing I can think of. Not just SI, but anything. Eating too much or too little, drinking too much, risk taking, practically anything. Part of me just wants anything that can hurt me or damage me.

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Post by amyfairy » Tue Apr 28, 2009 11:21 am

I don't want to eat, why can't I stop, I want to restrict - I can't go over that weight again but I'm going to put on :cry:

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Post by amyfairy » Tue Apr 28, 2009 11:59 am

I really want to full out binge but I'm scared of gaining weight.
I feel empty today.

I waste hours and hours a day, mooching around the internet. I feel so guilty for not doing more hard-core job hunting, but there's nothing around.

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Post by vampirelover » Tue Apr 28, 2009 12:16 pm

i seem to go between eating loads and hardly anything why cant i get the balance right
longest with no slips - 2 years , 6 months
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Post by Chaocontrol6 » Tue Apr 28, 2009 12:19 pm

Never thought I'd miss SI this much! I wonder if that "missing" will ever clear...
Just let time tell the story, and act accordingly. (Phrase by myself)
H.A.L.T!!! (Genius!!)
These feelings too, shall pass. (BUS phrase?)
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Post by vampirelover » Tue Apr 28, 2009 12:24 pm

i fancy my straight biology teacher shhh
longest with no slips - 2 years , 6 months
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Post by zombiepeople » Tue Apr 28, 2009 11:26 pm

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Post by amyfairy » Wed Apr 29, 2009 1:48 pm

I can't help thinking that the reason I look pretty today is because I've lost weight. I know I'm the perfect weight and I'm slim, near underweight probably but that makes me moe attractive.

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Wed Apr 29, 2009 1:59 pm

amyfairy wrote:I can't help thinking that the reason I look pretty today is because I've lost weight. I know I'm the perfect weight and I'm slim, near underweight probably but that makes me moe attractive.
More attractive than when I saw you? C'est impossible ma belle! Je t'aime..
:redstar: the time to tell a person you care is now :redstar: the paper crane chain of hope :redstar:

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Post by amyfairy » Wed Apr 29, 2009 2:23 pm

Licentia Poetica wrote:
amyfairy wrote:I can't help thinking that the reason I look pretty today is because I've lost weight. I know I'm the perfect weight and I'm slim, near underweight probably but that makes me moe attractive.
More attractive than when I saw you? C'est impossible ma belle! Je t'aime..
:1hug: thanks el, je t'aime aussi.

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Post by kermit » Wed Apr 29, 2009 2:53 pm

I don't think I'm clever enough and it's starting to show.
and tomorrow will come
When today is done...

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Post by Stefani140 » Wed Apr 29, 2009 4:50 pm

my paranoia is beginning to get the best of me
"Even if you're the lone voice in the wilderness, it does not mean you're wrong."

PMs, comments, challenges, advice and hugs welcome.

My Place: http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=128060

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Post by amyfairy » Wed Apr 29, 2009 11:51 pm

I am so sad.
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I cut for the first time in months, and actually felt guilty this time.
It enabled me to cry, if only for a minute.

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Post by Spidey » Thu Apr 30, 2009 12:30 am

I kind of feel like...I shouldn't feel as bad as I do.
there is, in the end, the letting go.
-marya hornbacher

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Thu Apr 30, 2009 7:14 am

Electric Prophet wrote:I kind of feel like...I shouldn't feel as bad as I do.
me too.
:redstar: the time to tell a person you care is now :redstar: the paper crane chain of hope :redstar:

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Post by ChangeTheWorld » Sat May 02, 2009 5:36 am

I am 26 and cannot have biological children without serious medical intervention. every time i see a young child in the street with their mother i die inside.
Strength.Compassion.Creativity.

"she wonders how many women are walking around this world feeling the tingling of their amputated wings. remembering what it was to fly. to sing." Andrea Gibson "Blue Blanket"

" I come in too many flavours for just one fucking spoon" (Stacey ann chin"Crossfire")

"I want to erase the straight lines, so i can be me" (Stacey-Ann Chin " If only out of vanity")

http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?f=19&t=194582 every challenge met, every obstacle conquered..aka MJ's Brand New Place. Read along as much as you please.

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