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Post by bellamuerte » Sun Jul 29, 2007 11:41 pm

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you told me a week. one FUCKING WEEK is all it would take and i'd be outta there?
Three weeks have passed bitch and i'm still fucking here!! Sure it's ok for you to fuck off on three weeks holidays. But ypu're my fucking PM!! this shit's to be sorted before you fucking go!!!

I sat and poured my heart out to you in that office infront of that other wanker!!!! I know you saw my arms, sure i caught you staring again.

Well ya know what?? Take your ugly fuckin job an shove it where the sun dont shine, cz dya know what chicken?? Your the same as she is. Full of empty promises. always have been. I've seen it done to other people. I am not blind and you will not use me as a pawn ever ever again!

Lets see who you'll get to stand at that fuckin thing now, 8hrs a day for fuck all money.

You fucking suck
And I still believe that I cannot be saved.

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Post by hidden behind a mask » Mon Jul 30, 2007 6:49 am

GRRRRRRRRRRR ok why cant you let her be happy, i love her so much cant you let her love me? i hate you...
and you fucking ass you want o be a part of my moms life then dont avoide me i am honistly suprized you didnt step up and play the "father" roal. i fuccking hat this i want to cut so bad but i cant my mom said that she said that she would slap me silly if i was doing it again and i live in vegas and i dont know awre to do it.

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Post by xunwrittenx » Thu Aug 02, 2007 3:43 am

people are so stupid gahhhhhhhh
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Post by Licentia Poetica » Sun Aug 05, 2007 6:44 am

I f%^&^#$^&*#$^&$#@ HATE DRIVING.

I'm not going to my lesson tomorrow. I suck.

FUCK IT/
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Post by the edge of the world » Sun Aug 05, 2007 6:59 am

:x grr. I don't talk that much. I just wish you would actually listen. I've been trying to communicate for months that we needed to think about the tuition bill... when do you listen? 10 days before it is due?! And now, you are surprised? I don't know what to do.... Plus, it makes me feel like you just don't listen to anything I say. Your cell phone -- yes, that must be answered. You must have in-depth conversations on it while we postpone our conversation... except when I call... or even, when you call me -- then it's "oh, wait, got a call on the other line... " LET YOUR ANSWERING MACHINE GET IT FOR ONCE! :cry:

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Post by the edge of the world » Sun Aug 05, 2007 7:46 am

I'm really really really really MAD!

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To the really really really mad one...

Post by fallen4u_ds » Sun Aug 05, 2007 11:30 pm

Edge-Why are you really really really mad?
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Post by jo_alone » Mon Aug 06, 2007 8:57 pm

The word is definIte. DefinItely. NOT definate. Or definately.

And just because you're on £50,000 more than me doesn't mean you are right. And that's right - NOT write.
One day I will not think...I will just be...

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Post by mephistopheles » Mon Aug 06, 2007 8:59 pm

You've given me a student loan for the last two years. Why the FUCK should I have to reapply this year?!

:argggh:
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Post by chickenbug2 » Tue Aug 07, 2007 3:54 am

i'm so angry at all of you! i want you to know that. i wish you could feel like this for just a minute and then you'd understand. you're all so spoiled and selfish and i should have to deal with it. fuck you all.
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When I am pinned and wriggling on the wall,
Then how should I begin
To spit out all the butt-ends of my days and ways?
And how should I presume?"
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Post by kendra » Wed Aug 08, 2007 5:12 am

what is it exactly dad that you don't get
a person calls when they need to talk to someone-I or someone else answers and lends an ear, let the person be heard
what do you mean do you think your prepared enough... it's only been 2 classes theres a reason there are like 10 more... and yes I feel like I will be prepared by the end of these classes- why is that such a shock to you... thanks for making me feel like crap and useless
theres a reason I don't talk much to you

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Post by downwardspiral » Wed Aug 08, 2007 10:05 am

I fucking knew I was right about you!! You fucking 2-faced back-stabbing bitch!!!! No one will EVER match upto your fucking standards and no matter what you do to me or say to me, he will ALWAYS take you side and defend you.
From now on, you will not step foot inside MY flat if I am here, you will NOT snoop around our bedroom and in our wardrobe, you will NOT have the chance to criticise the way I talk or my accent and you certainly will NOT EVER have the opportunity to upset me or cause me to argue with him over you, coz u know what huni...you aren't worth it. You FUCKING LOSER!!!!!

As for you Dad, thanks for letting me down...again. You've been doing it since I was 7 so why should turning up for a few hours to my 21st birthday BBQ be any different? :x


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I don't know why people like me, I'm just being me.

Everyone seems so happy, wonderful and free.
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Post by sweetelisum » Wed Aug 08, 2007 7:56 pm

What is your fucking problem man?! Is your social networking so damn important that you can't spare a day or two to let me get out of here when you know i am in absolute loony tune crazy family hell!
You people won't help me, you keep saying get a job, get a car, do this and that, but yet you won't help me one bit! I want to scream so loud that the other can hear me from 500 miles away in case he ever wondered what the hell happened to me after all these years. What happened? I got stuck in a big fucking hole and nothing ever changed or got better and I was alone all over again. Then I thought I found someone, something to make it better but it was only a facade.....


I make no sense anymore :bcatsmile:
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like a door,
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and she was the woman I loved,
but too many times she slept like
a mechanical deer in my caresses,
and I ached in the metal silence
of her dreams."
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Post by wilson » Fri Aug 10, 2007 6:25 pm

IF YOU DONT FUCKING SHUT UP IM GOING TO COME OVER THERE AND SHOVE THE GLASSES YOUR DRINKING OUT OF DOWN YOUR THROAT. LETS SEE YOU MAKE THAT MUCH NOISE THEN. IF THAT DOESNT WORK I WILL BEAT YOU WITH THEM. DONT YOU REALISE THAT PEOPLE ACTUALLY DONT HAVE WEEKENDS AND HAVE TO BE UP AT 6 TOMORROW MORNING

DIE DAMN YOU!!!
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Post by vampirelover » Fri Aug 10, 2007 6:35 pm

IM NOT OKAY , OKAY SO STOP ASKING ME IF I OKAY.
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Post by sweetelisum » Fri Aug 10, 2007 7:45 pm

If you really loved me, then you wouldn't be doing this. I call you in distress @ 5 yesterday. phone off. i ask you, upset, for you to call if you get one spare moment. and now its almost 2 o clock the following day.and once again i don't exist. i hate myself for loving you. and i drink to forget that i hate myself... it never ends. but it will.
"Hinged to forgetfulness
like a door,
she slowly closed out of
sight,
and she was the woman I loved,
but too many times she slept like
a mechanical deer in my caresses,
and I ached in the metal silence
of her dreams."
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Post by mephistopheles » Fri Aug 10, 2007 8:22 pm

NO!

No I don't want to go to your fucking straight club. I can't be bothered with your flirting women and guys laughing at me because i'm not a 20st rugby player :evil:

Fucking bastard! Why can't we just go somewhere FUN?! No one's going to rape you if we go to Heaven you homophobic cunt.
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Post by downwardspiral » Fri Aug 10, 2007 8:33 pm

:omad: :hmad: :omad: :hmad: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh:

I do something dramatic and change my whole look by dying my hair back to my natural colour and completely change the style and all you can do is look up from fixing your dad's laptop and say "Oh" then go on to say "My Dad's hard drive is totally screwed"
"Perfect I am not, nor will I ever be.
I don't know why people like me, I'm just being me.

Everyone seems so happy, wonderful and free.
For I will never be perfect like that, because I am only me."

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Post by _____iamacliche » Fri Aug 10, 2007 9:19 pm

[irl people:]

i can't fucking put up with this anymore.

i'm hurting.

please realise that.

please realise i'm not a fucking agony aunt. and i do not need your bullshit.

so please, shut the fuck up and get over yourself already.

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Post by Callisto » Sat Aug 11, 2007 10:59 am

(about irl people - just so no one gets paranoid):

fine be ignorant and pretend i don't exist. im at the point now where i honestly don't care. what you felt about being forced into seeing me over this last 3months hurt, really really hurt. so fuck you. if you don't wanna fucking see me then fine, i really don't care anymore. but don't fucking expect me to make an effort anymore because i'm sick of having it all thrown back in my face.

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