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AAAARRRGGGGHHHH... FUCK YOU!!!!!

Linkin Park - In the End

Sad, empty, urgy, tired.

Stop lying and fuck off. I'm so so glad it's over.

Stop asking me when I finish my intership, I never ever will meet you again so shut up please!

Tired and Urgy and a tad bit Angry and Annoyed.

First: stop stuffing your face; you'll never be thin like that. Second: R, please please stop calling me so much for fucking's sake. I hate this and you bore me to death. If you have to repeat yourself this much and don't know what else to say stop calling me. And stop being so self-centered. I real...

I'm stressed about money.

I want a break, I'm so exhausted.

I'm sad and I want to cut but I really shouldn't.

I'm a big disappointment to everybody.

I try for my family.

I try for my friends.

I try to prove some people wrong.

And at last and most important:

I try for myself, knowing there will be better times.

You're so fragile tonight Been up hurting all night It's not trivial like they think Yes you're desperate and you're hurt Thought about it so many times Too afraid to open your eyes To see the sadness that's inside Just sit back in and stop time You're tender and you're tired You can't be bothered ...

journalling or write the post I'd post on bus in word to post later or to delete if the need isn't there

sleep

watch TV

call friends

browse the net for distractions

paint, draw, write

I don't want to SI as long as I do my internship in a kindergarten, working with really little kids so I distracted myself and took an emergency med till I fell asleep.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CAN'T STAND THESE FEELINGS ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You know, I wanna tell you how bad I'm feeling, how much su I am, that I cut every day at the moment, that things are so bad I just want to be dead. But you made it clear you don't want to hear anything about that kind of stuff, it makes me really sad and angry. I only want to have the relationship ...

Before You Self-Harm write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I'm hopefully calmer and it will be easier to fall asleep. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the...

SHUT UP! Just shut up. I don't want to hear this bullshit anymore!

I'm getting sick of you. Why is one thing okay when you do it but not when I do it. Sometimes I doubt that I still want to be friends with you. You're getting on my nerves, seriously!!! Imo best friends should act differently!

You really don't have to bring up and discuss every little thing. Suck it up! I'm really getting sick of this!