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hi calisticks. i'm sorry your husband was hurtful and frightening. i'm glad you are not si-ing at the moment, and i hope going to sleep will help. good on you on the language lessons :) i'm trying to learn french and i'm still very much a beginner. just thinking about posibilities cos i don't know w...

scared and alone

write as much as you need to, it's not too long or taking too much attention. some people have chronic illnesses that are physical and may lead to frequently missing classes. it's not a problem to be vague and say you are unwell. do you need a medical certificate for missing classes or missing the t...

i'm sorry things are getting more difficult. i would encourage you to talk to teachers or staff about it, get some extensions on your next few assignments and work out how to catch up without overloading yourself. i'm in a similar place in some ways, feeling like i just can't study effectively and g...

it's completely fine to not answer the questions here, whatever you want to write is ok. i'm glad you are able to withstand the si thoughts and not give in, but it must be tiring and difficult to do that. when i'm a bit spacey and trying to study it helps to write things down as i'm going. you might...

Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future? I don't think so why do you say that? you have done so well in resisting some negative urges in the past and in getting help when necessary. everything has up and down times but there are many things that are looking up for you, and i...

hi stellaria :bluestar: are your med changes being helped by a dr? it sounds like your meds are a likely cause of your mood dropping and something you can do something about. i really hope you will talk to a dr about it as soon as you can. i listen to a lot of guided meditations when i'm trying to f...

i wantt to rite more but dont know if is ok here. maybe find my place again you can post whatever you want here that's within bus rules. you can use trigger warnings if it's graphic or disturbing. what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me w...

writing is good - it's how i best express myself too. you could take your previous posts to your dr or your counsellor to help express things there. depression has a nasty way of making you think too much, feeling like there's something you need to figure out, if only you thought about it more. plan...

i'm really glad typing here helped. i think it's good to have that here, to see if something positive came out of asking yourself questions. i really empathise with your situation. a job agency (even one specifically meant for people with diabilities and mental health issues) put me in a job i could...

hi jaymes, did you end up si-ing? i've had similar issues with anger leading to si. i feel like i can't control my anger, that i might lose control - rave out loud, smash everything, or hurt other people, so i almost always control it by using si. for you - what is the worst that happens if you stay...

i think it's ok to want to talk and want someone to care. i care, even if that's not the same. with centrelink - are you eligible for disability pension? it's a long process but could be worth it? i can understand crying after, or during, centrelink appts, i've done that. it helps me feel stronger i...

i like that you wrote "I need to sit with this feeling and let myself feel it. I need to accept it for what it is, accept that I have it, and that it is uncomfortable but not unbearable." your feelings are real and valid. they show the empathy you have for others, the capacity you have to care, the ...

i forget sometimes that you have depression as well, you often seem to have so much energy and you've said before the meds have helped a huge amount. it feels strange that you don't have energy right now, that you aren't zipping around the house doing the things you planned - cooking, tidying etc. i...

sad and angry

going to try music, then not sure. maybe the anger would be best with something physical but the sadness wants me to curl up in a ball.

good on you for returning to b&a, moon raver. i hope answering the questions gave you some insight, although i've asked some more questions that might make you think some more if you are up to it. *challenging* thinspo is an addiction, just like drugs, alcohol, food, or self harm i don't think that ...

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? immeditate pain will take away the mental pain and anxiety. it will help me use up energy, express my feelings in a way that feels constructive - making something out of it, turning it into something that pushes me forward (out of the hous...

hi sojourner_steph. i'm sorry you are hurting so much, i can understand wanting the torment to stop. i find distraction quite helpful but usually it's fairly obvious that it's helping because i start feeling calmer and when si thoughts and feelings bug me it's not for long, i can push my focus back ...

replying to one little thing, i don't mean to ignore the rest but i can't think enough right now. How do I feel right now? empty, lonely, cut off i need stuff and i don't know how to say it. i can't say "i need love" because it's too general and saying "i need someone to love and take care of me and...

Hi sojourner_steph. How are you going now? My trick for being stuck in my emotions and hating how stuck i am is to say f- this i may as well be unproductive today and find something distracting and relaxing to do. I find that it gives me a way to accept that i'm disappointed in myself without punish...