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Hm, never thought about that.. but for me i think "since when has my school district ever obeyed the law" .. the one knew i was struggling with it.. we dont really talk anymore... the other one.. he just "knows".. and told me to read something next time i feel like that.. and he knows it was somethi...

on one hand.. im über giddy and hyper..

on the other.. i've been thinking and now im confused.. slightly lost.. trapped..

i am... -A real person with feelings -Intelligent, yes, but not a genius -Loved more by people not related to me -so confused it's not funny -a humorous person -locked away inside my own mind -complicated -trustworthy -loyal (if i like you..) -who i've always been.. myself i am not... -A truely hea...

.. I do talk about it with people.. There is Brooke, who I talk about it when ever I need to.. and she's really understanding, and patient with me.. she'll let me rant it out (or cry) and then she'll point out to me gently things i've missed or something that may help me.. in actuality.. she's the f...

My "Teddybear" - You've been there for me for over a year, and I cannot that you enough. You were there the nights at like 12, that I didn't know what the hell I was doing or what could have happened. You yelled at me in all the right places, and calmly talked the rest of the time. I'm sorry I have ...

because i didnt want to look Brooke, Jenn and Tina in the eyes and tell them i did it again..

Plus, I sat there for half of my next class and talked to Jenn.. and it made me think about how i didnt want to harm myself.. and that i want to find healthier ways to take out my stress..

-dani

Jenn - i am just not okay at the moment.. and this year has taught me a hell of alot.. but at the moment.. i'm just not ready to jump ahead and do that.. i do have a fear.. okay.. i have a fear of this.. all i want is to just sit down with you for one entire period and just talk to you.. thats all i...

Brooke.. I am sorry .. for everything.

Jenn - God, i am sorry for worring you today.. and this week in general.. i didnt think you'd read that deep into everything..

.. i need to go talk to them now.. especially Jenn.. time for a sit down with the both of them

ARGH!!! WHY CANT SHE JUST LISTEN TO ME?! WHY MUST SHE THINK THERES SOMETHING WRONG?!


Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:star: emails :star: HUGS :star: smiles from Brooke :star: smiles in general :star: band jokes :star: band bus :star: senior friends :star: instrument room sex talks :D :star: pretty flowers :star: crazy faces :star: COFFEE :star: chocolate :-) :star: hearing your fave song on the radio and it boost...

:star: i wish you'd understand :star: i wish that you'd listen :star: i wish i could get a hug from you :star: i wish you would just hold me :star: i wish everything was okay :star: i wish i could redo this year :star: i wish i could fix what i've screwed up :star: i wish youd look at me :star: i wi...

Brooke - Dani. you are amazingly strong, and i love you too.. in that friend manner.. I will always be here for you.. Jen - dani everything is okay, and if you need help ask me.. love you too. Tina - D-Nut. youre awesome, hot, and i love ya, you know that. Prowant - I'm honored that you trust me, an...

Brooke - You are the main reason i've made it though this school year, you are amazing and i thank you for that. You are like the older sister i've never had , to me anymore. It hurts when i dont get to talk to you, but i realize that's going to happen since you are graduating. i am going to miss yo...

:bluestar: I will not SI, cause i dont want to hurt myself anymore :bluestar: I dont want to disappoint Brooke, who has helped me so Much, :bluestar: I want control. :bluestar: I refuse to give in anymore :bluestar: I dont need anymore scars. :bluestar: I dont want to be afraid of myself at times an...

aaaahhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


This research report is already sending me over the edge, and i HATE IT!!!! AAAAHHH!

:star: i wish i was normal :star: i wish i was happy :star: i wish i could fix it all :star: i wish i was calm :star: i wish i could accept myself for who i am :star: i wish i make people understand :star: i wish i had more supportive friends :star: i wish my parents would leave me the hell alone wh...

ahhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! i fucked it up.. DAMNIT .. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH WHY THE HELL MUST I BREAK MY WORD?! WHY MUST I ?! WHY CANT I JUST CHILL OUT?! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...

Brooke - You have been there for me for what feels like Forever and a day, and i'm glad to have you, my teddybear, to hug when i feel like im losing it. im glad to be able to have my emotions shown in a different light, im so thankful to have you as one of my friends. I can trust you with my life, a...

B- " I may not understand everything that happens with this.. but I am always here for you. I love you and if i could i would ALWAYS be near you, i care about you and i dont want you to hurt yourself, i will always help you, i will always care, and i will always talk you out of things to keep you sa...

Let's see.. last time i wanted to SI but didnt.. I posted on here.. Was talked calm by my best friend.. who threatened an ass kicking on me if i did.. thing is she is too nice and could never do that so i smiled .. kinda wierd but it made me smile.. i didnt cause i promised my friends i wouldnt.. i ...