bus

Its fucking driving me up the wall that you don't talk to me anymore. I am doing my best to stay supportive and trying to remain patient until you come around, but I think one of these days I am going to snap on you. I need someone to talk to right now and I feel scared and nervous to talk to you be...

I really love you. It hurts when I see you hurting and cut me out. I just want us to be able to talk again.

for someone to hear me
for more faith
someone to love me for me

I care today. I care about the people that a relapse would hurt. I care about the repercussions professionally and educationally.

numb

I got out of bed and helped someone else today

If I did I might as well kiss my job goodbye and my future career goodbye

I wish that it didnt have to hurt so bad and that I was better at reaching out

anxious

I just want someone to hold me, to save me, to protect me...

knowing that I would hurt people
knowing that I would be unethical in my job
thinking of the consequence of not getting into grad school
exercise
friends
sponsee's
movies/tv

I so want to tell you how I am feeling and what I am thinking, but I cant keep calling you. I dont want to burn you out...

I give up. I have tried to be supportive and be there for you, but I cant keep doing this....

I cant cry so I will do it here

I wish that sometimes people would just see me. I want you so bad to care, to call, to say hi. I feel so alone when I am not reaching out in crisis. Please just see me, anybody, I dont care who...

I thought I was over this...

like i want to explode

There is spam all over this board, not only stand alone topics but on the end of topics posted! Dont know how else to let you guys know!