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Alone and unwanted, replaceable and unlovable.

I took an extra PRN and laid down with a book til I fell asleep. I had to go swimming with clients and didn't need them seeing anything new.

Pissed off
Anxious
Shaky
Like I'm not worth the time or effort
Like I want to hurt myself or die

I'm done, totally done with bullshit from you and everyone else. I refuse to talk to you or anyone else from the group if I can help it. I'm sick of you acting like you care to save face in front of the group. Then when I go to you when I actually need help or even just a hug you ignore me like I do...

Anxious, annoyed, yet proud about work as well as worried

I'm sick of being talked to like I'm a child. Yes, you are 17 years older than me, but we are both still adults. I know I'm not great with social situations, especially ones with men. I tend to put my foot in my mouth, I own it, I know it. Still it doesn't call for treating me like a child. It annoy...

Thank you. I ended up being safe the other night. Hopefully I can keep up the two day trend.

Before: Before You Self-Harm write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? Hurting myself might relieve the anxiety I'm feeling. It's helped in the past. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what...

I didn't want to disappoint my brother-in-law who has been wonderful through this whole divorce process.

i keep getting a debug error when ever i try to post. it's happened three time now... anyone know what's up?

~tkdtiger

Could not insert new word matches i tried posting in the nest and when i hit submit i got this, i tried it twice and got the same thing both times. anyone know what it means? DEBUG MODE SQL Error : 1016 Can't open file: 'phpbb_search_wordmatch.MYI'. (errno: 145) INSERT INTO phpbb_search_wordmatch (p...

i'm not sure if i should post this here, but i'm also on the email list and i stopped getting emails a couple days ago. anyone know what's going on? if i'm not supposed to post this mods and admin, pls delete.
thanks,
~tkdtiger

yay! thanks
~tkdtiger

i can't get to the counter again... any ideas?
~tkdtiger

i set mine to start at 00:00:00 on the day, yet at 1am eastern time, it says it's been running so and so days 6 hours so and so min... shouldn't it say ---- days 1 hour ---min... so on? or is it set to uk time? which is what i figure, just a wee bit confused. sorry if this doesn't make any sense. th...

i still can't get in. it's now telling me:

Unable to connect to server (Connection timed out)

sorry for being a pain.

~tkdtiger

when i try #1 from above it lets me log in, but then it tells me it can't connect. #2 i can get to www.mirc.com from there i'm totally lost, i don't see any drop down list or anything like that. i don't get anything about an email. i'm getting frustrated now. sorry if i'm being annoying. ~tkdtiger

the first one won't let me connect, and the second one i can't find the drop down list. very confused...
~tkdtiger

check out these, they might explain somethings:

http://www.buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=74294

http://www.buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=74642

~tkdtiger

i'm trying to get into the chat, but it won't let me in. any suggestions?
~tkdtiger