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It started a few months ago. I couldn’t tell you when, exactly. But I know I’ve not been so good for a while. For quite a long while. It’s hard to tell people you’re not okay anymore. They’ve been here before, and it feels like one step forward and twenty back. I’m tired of it, they’re tired of it. ...

SH is not the comfort it used to be. Somewhere in the last two years I've crossed a bridge (or maybe burnt some) and realised that there are better things for me. SH doesn't make me feel better anymore. I wanted to write that down so I can come back and read it and know that this is a feeling I can ...

Feeling better this morning and made it through yesterday without SHing. Though I did go shopping and spend £200!!!!

:star: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? The situation won't change :star: what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? It will make me feel like I have some control, or some say in things. I'm not just letting it drive me cra...

I hear what you're saying mallie, I just wasn't up to answering them earlier. Doing that lazy, I don't care if I SH or not thing. Here are my revised answers: :star: in retrospect, are there coping methods that you now realize might have helped? what were they? I'd tried sleeping, reading, putting o...

:star: have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. Yes, I didn't bleed. It's not too bad, just stingy. :star: what had happened just before? I couldn't focus. I was in this dream place and it was driving me crazy. :star: what were you thinking and feeling? Nothin...

I used to go to my best friends house (he lives alone) and sleep on his couch, just veg out and relax. Sometimes I'd talk about it, sometimes not. Usually I'd talk randomly, half sentences etc.
I found that really helpful.

I'm not coping.

PM's if you want, but no urgent need I think I might have an ED, but nobody knows or even notices. I'm not really skinny, or obvious about it. But inside I'm telling me horrible things and I'm hating my body. Sometimes I think having an ED would be one more problem I could create for myself. ____ I ...

flapjack

I hate that you think you can treat me like that.
I hate that when you show up I'll love you just the same.

I enjoy studying nursing coz I can learn how to hurt myself with lots of blood, but less scarring, and I can bandage my wounds properly.

* O coming home soon
* Being in the shade for a second and then feeling the warmth of the sun again
* Finishing first year at uni!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
* Raspberries

I go for the: just do it and be direct approach. And usually to more than one person at a time. It is totally incrediby terrifying and I can back out of it alot. But I usually text or email (face/phone is REALLY hard for me) and I ask mnore than one person. I figure that if I'm doing it once, it's n...

Well I haven't checked my inbox for months so it couldn't be the first thing, but no worries.
Thanks.

I got an email saying I had a new pm, but when I opened my account I had no new msgs.

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**trigs, of course** Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? Keep having recurring thought about cutting my neck open. Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then? Yes. I ignored it. It never went away. What I have done to ease this dis...

**trigs, of course** Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? Keep having recurring thought about cutting my neck open. Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then? Yes. I ignored it. It never went away. What I have done to ease this dis...

Also in reply to why I don't reply much (confusing...), I guess I am scared. Like I want to help others etc, but I come on here and start to read a thread and I just feel myself slipping into a dangerous place. I know I've not feel condemned by this, my safety is the most important thing, I NEED to ...

Finding I've been really strong in resisting SH (it's about 125days free now), but this week has been hard. Been having a recurring thought about SHing on my neck. I know I don't want to and that I won't do it, but the continual thought is distressing. Considering SHing on my leg or something instea...