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I'm starting to really, really resent you. It's not even hate, it's resentment. I am still in love with you but after 18 months together I can't help but see things clearer. Yes, I've gained a lot from being with you. But I have paid for it as well, you cost me a lot. I love you and I never want to ...

Sometimes I feel like we are drifting apart like tectonic plates, ever so slowly but surely. We met in my year of complete hedonism, no work, all play, all pleasure and no consequences. I loved experiencing that with you, but I can't do that anymore. You say I judge you every time you say you want t...

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W - you absolutely fascinate me. perhaps because you find me fascinating, or at least you seemed to last time we met. I've never known anyone be so interested in what I had to say, on architecture, for christsake! I've thought about you a lot since because I don't really know anything about you. You...

S - if only you knew what I thought of you, what I think about when you come to mind. Honestly, you'd be shocked. You've awakened something within me that I haven't felt for anyone for a long, long time, real physical desire. I've been with girls so long I'm used to sensitivity and emotional convers...

D - I have a confession. I admire you, I really do. Not for everything, but for the way you've reinvented yourself. Your attitude, not everyone adores you but you don't care. I wish I could be like you. Infact, I'm trying very hard to be like you, and in some ways it's working. I don't want to be on...

D - I don't know why I've become a little obsessed with you recently. It is an absolute secret, I haven't even told E about my attraction which is saying something, I tell her everything. It's very weird to me, I'm not used to thinking about someone this way, this year I've mostly dated girls and to...

I'm going to miss you like hell

What is your secret? recently I've been feeling an urge to go to church Why is it a secret? Because all of my family and close friends are firm atheists What are your feelings about this secret? It makes me feel angry and restricted, but also fustrated with myself that I let other peoples views aff...

T - I like you, I want to get to know you better. I feel like there was some serious chemistry between us and I want to explore it. I'm partly angry I only got a chance to know you briefly, but I'm still glad I did meet you. I'm not going to give up on this.

I don't care if you fail. No, I hope you do, so I can finally leave you behind and move on to better things.

i am... complex

i am not... flat, single-minded, 2D

i feel... confusion

i want... peace of mind, unconditional love

i need... to fall in love

i have... no strength

i love... many different people in different ways

i hate... lack of clarity

I think I'm slowly going really mad. I thought it would help me be more myself but it just put me in a box. When am I going to learn not to try and define myself?

I'm really disappointed in you right now. I don't care if you break the promises you've made to other people, but I hate it when you break the promises you've made to me. I feel like I can't trust you anymore, every time you say you'll deliver you wimp out. And you wonder why you're failing on almos...

S - You wouldn't believe how thankful I am that things didn't work out between us, now I realise what a juvenile idiot you are. I'm lucky to have gotten away A - It's really nice to meet someone who takes such an immediate liking to me. It's refreshing and flattering, and a massive self esteem boost...

I miss and love you very much. I should tell you more often. I think that's the problem, people don't tell you they love you enough- or you don't let them. You're beyond special.

you're crude, immature, brattish, insensitive and insincere, so why do I like you? You're fucking me up- get out of my head

You are not better than me because you chose to drop out at sixteen and I chose to do a degree. You are not better than me because you roll out of bed at 12 and are on the dole. You lack the discipline to be a student, that doesn't make you better than me so stop throwing the fact that we don't work...

I couldn't have got it more wrong, could I?
But still, I wouldn't change what I did.

please come tomorrow, please