bus

hi kira,

nice to see that you are back. i dont do the 5 minute thing. it makes me more anxious and even more urgey bc then i find i think of it more and land up si'ing even worse. but ty for your input.

though i did throw the blade away and am feeling much better at the moment.

noel

thanks pretty

i thought i had thrown them all away but found one i had hidden inbetween some framed pictures when i was moving my room around. but thanks for your reply and for reading.

noel

:roll: i just realised that i put a smiley face in the topic title. mmmmmm. thanks for waiting plantt. anyway ..... have you taken care of your physicle wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. yup, i have. i think that taking care of the wounds, putting on clean bandages is all very much part of...

thanks eu. yes i did disinfect and bandage, but i cant go into the real why right now. but the physical stuff is taken care of. ty.



noel

why oh why? ive been reading before and afters for a while now. i cant do the questions right now. but i need to and i want to. i cut my left arm pretty badly. by putting a post here i am forcing myself for an after to analyze why i cut. so though it says nothing at the moment, i will answer the que...

i relate to your after. loneliness. drinking. :-? *deep sigh* Were there outside factors like drugs, alcohol, being off your meds, lack of sleep, etc? Can you address those in the future? How? Yes, sadly, and I should have known better. I swear I do it every time. I need to do what I mentioned above...

frances just wanted to let you know that i read and am glad that as highly strung as you feel right now and as stressed and as urgey that you are, that you rather posted than cut. am proud of you. it sounds like you know what you should do, and that is stop looking at everything that has to be done ...

i also have a serious problem with dissasociation and sometimes use si as a way to stay grounded. my belief is if i bleed then i must be alive, so i totally relate to what you are saying. i tried to start a thread in coping about how to ground yourself when you dissasociate but nobody answered in it...

:) hi pretty, yeah, i hear you, it is good to try to answer all the questions bc it really does force you to consider all your options before hurting yourself. and the questions are really good ones, i keep them printed out and with me in my wallet and even though i dont post here personally a lot, ...

jaded i dont know what to say that could possibly help you, and as i havent been in the position that you are in right now i cant even empathise. distractions as you say will only keep youy from si but as soon as they are finished like the tv programme then you are going to carry on with the urges. ...

sometimes i find that reading and replying here helps me more than writing out all the questions. maybe sometimes all the questions are a bit daunting to bussers and we could make like a short version? and ppl can also realise that to post here you dont have to answer all the question, just as much ...

thx for fixing it so quick deb

had to laugh at the title to this thread though, bc i have no idea either

noel

I hope i have done this right as i have never written post in here before. these questions are here for you to be able to analyze why you cut, so however you answer is right. i think you didnt do to bad myself. if i understand correctly, the biggest reason why you cut is because you felt lonely and...

A phrase my T taught me that helped when view my behavior is "Isn't that interesting!" Said just the way I'd say, my eyes are green. Practicing detaching from the behavior and being curious about it instead of angry at it can help you understand what's motivating it and is a good place to start hea...

added this in your place, where you will see it first i dont know, so ill just add it here too i really hope that you feel better soon and get through this rough patch you are feeling you are going through. try write down your problems. fold them up and leave them on your bed and go for a walk. dist...

i know im going to be alone again and i know im going to feel shit while im there, i have nobody i can turn to, i dont want to bother people with my problems not when they have their own, nobody wants me, nobody loves me and no body needs me. i so relate to this. but bus is here. i want you to be h...

in a way i dont even know if i should try finish these questions? :o in my place i posted that i have taken out my si free date from my sig, bc i think the next month is just gonna be too difficult, too damn hard to even try to stop si'ing, and maybe i should just stop trying as i am probably gonna ...

susie, yup. the si wasn't as bad as usual. i probably cut as much as i normally do, but it wasnt as deep. sp yeah. tries to think of emotion that goes with that? :( cant. sdf, so i might talk a lot but the emotion stays bottled up this may well be it. as a guy you just are not allowed to show emotio...

thank-you wndy and susie. oh well, i getto do an after post anyway. oh well, at least i am not just giving in to urges any more and managed to fight off the urges since saturday when they started getting bad. so its definitely getting better. not easier i would say. im getting stronger i suppose. do...

pounces on deb. hugs her if she likes it or not. my inbox isnt flooded anymore with notifications and its so easy. thanks again deb.