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how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I will feel better (albeit tempararily) what will hurting myself bring to the situation? calmness, perhaps a distraction from nagging thoughts what will it take away from the situation? Mainly I'll lose a whole lot of time s.i.free how do ...

Things are not as they seem. I'm not as I seem. Some of the things I am doing are not healthy, some of them are downright wrong. I feel like I'm decieving you and I don't mean to. You've misinterpreted somethings and I've let you. I can't seem to keep myself safe, I sometimes think I shouldn't be th...

Thank you for your reply. I do need to work on my coping mechs for anxiety, I will check out the coping board.

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? The feeling will change in that I will feel calmer what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? bring- the above mentioned calmness, an end to obsessive thoughts about cutting (probably only t...

Yeah in my experience just being around other people can help because they are a distraction, plus logistically it's just more difficult to SI if everyone is awake. Also sleep deprivation tends to push me right into feeling like s.i.ing making sleep a good idea all around. I hope you get some sleep ...

I think sleep would be an excellent idea. You mentioned that it usually helps and certainly it is healthier than si. You also said that stopping drinking would be a good idea at this point and sleeping would take care of that as well.) Do you think it might help to go to sleep and deal with these ur...

Beeswax candles- they smell lovely
Cats on a cold day- extra cuddly body heat mongers.

I really appreciate your feedback, thank you. I will have to give that enjoyment list a try it sounds like a good idea.

Also it's the anniversary of my mom's death which always screws me up a bit.

I don't know what I want to do anymore. I'd like some more time to spend with my husband but that would require a sitter. My SIL is supposed to watch the kiddos for a couple of hours tomorow so that will be good. I really hope it happens. But then we will probably be running errands to get stuff don...

Slept a bit which helped some.

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? It should tame the urge to hurt myself, at least for a bit. May shake me out of this mood, give me something new to concentrate on. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? I'm not sure. I...

Woah! Hey now could you do the questions first? Or is it too late? Do the after questions at least, yes?

Do take care.

Couldn't find her email addy but in looking on our HMOs site I found a worksheet on suicidal thoughts (a "fill this out and bring it with you to the doctor's" thing) So I did that and put it in my workbook so that I will be more likely to take it. I figure if I take it I'm more likely to talk about ...

I was thinking of writing "Ask me about suicidal idealation" on my forehead in perminant marker before my appointment on Friday but it occurs to me that I may have the therapists email address and could, perhaps, email her that request instead.

That might get me less strange looks on the bus.

I think I can hold out today it's just what's the point?

Well if you are trying to quit, or have quit then every day that you don't SI is a good thing, eh? Plus it does seem that the less you do of a thing the easier it gets not to do it. And perhaps by tomorow the urges will pass.

Got one for 10am Friday morning.

you mentioned working in the anxiety workbook... & makes me wonder if you've considered getting a depression workbook as well... there are depression workbooks... & also (forget the exact wording) but 'how to prevent relapse' type workbooks. might be worth checking out... That's a good idea. The an...

I understand the need for the option. I hope you maintain the balance. Talking to someone, I feel, would be the better way - I'm around if you need anyone online, but is there someone you could meet or ring around you? Thanks very much for the offer, it's quite late here so calling someone isn't an...

The way you describe your urges they sound like panic attacks. One of the difficult things about panic attacks is that they set off biological reactions in your body that make the attacks self perpetuating. When your heart starts to race and your breathing gets quicker and shallower it gets harder t...