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hey! welcome to bus; i havn't seen you around. :D i don't have many words tonight, but i'll try to offer some helpful suggestions anyway. it seems like you're stressed out, and like you said, had schoolwork to do. maybe you could try and plan ahead to allow time for yourself to relax as well. like, ...

*sits with you* i hate those days where you feel like si'ing, but you can't figure out why, and there's no real reason for it. :-? i'm glad you've done things to distract yourself from these feelings. and posting here is always a good idea; it can help you think a litlte more about what you're about...

demidivine: i'm searching for words tonight, but unfortunately my brain can't function because i'm sick. so this will be short... 1. congratulations on posting before you did anything. even though you ended up si'ing, you at least tried to distract yourself. :) 2. :1hug3: if okay... i'm always here ...

bill: it's sex. and lust, and friendship love. maybe i am in love with you. i don't know. i don't want to think about it. i'm happy with this. and what we had before, minus the lies and the other girls. and i'm not perfect. i'm just confident, and that has to count for something, but it doesn't mean...

you sound very determined not to si, and i'm so proud of you for that! :D just questions to think about... 1. what made you feel triggered/upset/hurt? 2. if the relief will only last 10 minutes, will it balance out the guilt you'll feel afterwards? will si'ing now be worth it later? 3. you are stron...

thank you so much silverdragonfly and demidivine. you're both wonderful people. :pinkheart: how do you feel when you're feeling alive? what is it about hurting yourself that gets you there— the physical sensation? the emotional meaning of what you've done? i just feel more real, and more important. ...

1. how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? i'll feel more alive. and real, and not dead and empty or numb. i can't do anything else to take away this feeling right now. 2. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? it will bring f...

3. even if you want to help yourself, and make it through this alone, you are not a weaker person for asking for support or help. in fact, you're helping yourself by asking for it. if you consider a t, you don't need to open up right away. you can wait for one you trust and actually feel comfortable...

hey... i read this about exercising in a magazine the other day, but i think it'd work for si too. every time you have the urge to si, but don't, put a dollar away in a jar or box. (or however much you want). set a goal for yourself: one week? a month? whatever... and at the end of that time, buy so...

hey there... i'm glad you're reconsidering si'ing, and that you distractedyourself. :D i'll comment some on what you wrote again, and try to help some more. 1. do you know of any ways that help relieve the feeling of numbness? things that generally work for me, and for other people i know are bubble...

hey there... i'm late to this thread, sorry, but i have comments. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? If I hurt myself, I would be able to think better and find a way to make my mom see what she is doing to me. But hurting myself would also giv...

hey there... hope you don't mind me commenting, but here's some questions i thought about when i read. 1. you said you feel numb... i've been there so many times, so i can definately relate. is there any specific activity that helps you feel less numb? is it a physical numbness or an emotional one? ...

hey... i think i remember a post about this before, but couldn't find it. so i'm posting again. sometimes i go through periods of time where i don't feel anything (emotionally) except anger, because that becomes physical for me. like for the past few days, i havn't felt happiness. or sadness. just e...

hey there... http://busmail.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=69886 - recent post about this. you might want to try a search on bus for "panic attacks" or "shaking" or something of the sort. i've dealt with this a lot, and though i havn't been diagnosed, i think they're panic attacks. basically my body feel...

i do it too, subconsciously i think. like i know i shouldn't, but it's a habit i can't really stop.

sorry i don't have advice, but i can relate. *huggles*
love, tara.