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I feel like I keep most people at arms' length because if I trusted them more they would reject my true self.

TO RL people: I was only useful to you when I gave you what YOU wanted. Now that I have nothing--no job to go to, no in person church services, and nothing of emotional support left to offer, and I need YOUR help, you leave me. I begged and pleaded for your help, but I was too much of a burden to yo...

Hi Treasure, Throwing a tantrum, unfortunately, will look like exactly how you might imagine. Throwing stuff and being really, really loud. When, I am at home next time, I think I might do the writing the letter thing. Thank you for your suggestion! However, what should I do when I can't write a let...

After: Questions to Answer After A Slip slips are chances to learn. you figure out what stresses are still too hard for you and you can work on how you'll deal with them next time you run into them. so instead of beating yourself up, take action. what had happened just before? I had an argument with...

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I can't do this without you anymore. You HAVE to come back! Just your presence motivated me to work hard and always do the best I can. I have tried so damn hard to put you out of my mind, but I can't. I love you too much! I promise I will make sure our SM knows how much of a gem you were to the whol...

The song "There You'll Be" by Faith Hill makes me feel sad, yet hopeful. Overall, though this song gives me comfort because even though I don't get to see the people I think about when I listen to this song, I know they will always be in my . I will never forget them!

*mention of deity* Ever since you left, things have been 100 x tougher for me. But, at the same time, I don't want you to come back to an environment where people don't appreciate or care about you. They didn't deserve you! I didn't deserve you. You deserved much better! Watching and hearing about p...

To the person who fired B: My trust for whoever you are is now zippity do dah! Do you realize how much you have hurt not only B, but also all of us? Do you even realize how B dedicated HIS WHOLE LIFE to serve you and all of us..and that is your fucking thank you to him? You didn't even let me, or an...

I miss you so much. I didn't even get the chance to say goodbye to you. I'm sorry he didn't appreciate all you had done. I hope you'll be OK and that you will have success and joy in whatever you do next. I'm so sorry that I didn't tell you how much you meant to me, until it was too late. I hope it'...

*rels triggers* When I said that my relationship with him was "complicated" , I meant it. I can't tell you this in person because I know you would never understand. You see, I didn't always love him like I do now. In fact, for a long time I hated him! I wanted him out of my life and mind. But that n...

*slight RELS triggs for mention of Deity* If I told you how much I cared about you, you would not believe me. If I told you how much I aspire to be like you in certain aspects of my life, you would be amazed..and maybe a bit afraid. I know that in the past that I would never think about being anythi...

You hurt me so much. I thought you were my friend, but I know who you really are. Know that I don't do fake.I don't pretend to be people's friends, and then stab them in their back, and spread untrue rumors about them. Whatever I say about someone else, always is true. I know your only mission right...

This is what I would say to all my naysayers IRL, that thought I was worthless and couldn't do anything: *RELS triggers* Further 2/11/2018 You said I wouldn’t amount to much You said things that invalidated me as such You made me cry and cry And you almost made me die But you don’t know my Savior Yo...

What the fuck is WRONG with you? Just when I think you're nice, you show your real self. It's now not enough to screw me over, but also my very good friends! You need serious help immediately. You criticize someone I know for "talking down to people," and "being a bully," when I think she has been n...

I'm tired. I'm so sick of trying to work things out with you, bending over fucking backwards to be nice to you, and trying my best every day, and your "thanks" is to yell at me, ignore me, lie to me, and cut my hours?! Other people I know appreciate me already even if they never told me. I am ABSOLU...

Thank you so much for taking the time to tell me how much you appreciated my work. That means the world to me. Know also that you have NEVER ever offended me by not appreciating me or talking down to me. You have almost always been kind and gracious to me. You may not be THE favorite manager, but yo...

"I can't love you anymore" by Gary Nichols

You SAID you would be here today, but you lied to everyone. If you are never coming back please say so and don' t leave everyone in limbo. It's not fair to anyone involved. I'm sorry; I can't forget how much you hurt me before and how much you are hurting me now. As of right now, we are done. Absolu...

Please, PLEASE get out of my mind and heart! You are taking up so many spoons, that I don't have any left for the ones that really care about and love me most. And, NO I DON'T HAVE ANY MORE SPOONS FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! Just. leave.