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Thanks. I'm a little worried, because this is through the university medical center, and I graduate in just over a month. After that, I guess I'll need to find a new pdoc, and I don't know how that would delay the process of finding the right med/meds for me. But if I react badly to so many of them,...

The pdoc just called. He says to stop taking the meds. I go see him in another week. I don't know what'll happen. I'm really frustrated. Years ago, I was on Wellbutrin, and it worked fine. This time 'round it's just making me crazy. I've been on too many antidepressants that have had crazy side effe...

Thanks for the response. I did ultimately decide to let my T call my pdoc, which she should be doing sometime today. She says she'll call me afterwards, and let me know what's going on with that. In the meantime, I'll try doing some of that stuff, like quietish activities before bed, but sometimes i...

I ended up getting myself back into the energy. I ran around the house, jumping and moving my arms a lot. And I took some ice, and mostly just used it to ground myself, running it over my face and hands. This got me calmer, calm enough to not si, and to read a book, but not to sleep. A couple hours ...

My T thinks I'm having some sort of hypomanic reaction to an increase in meds dosage. Actually, she thinks I have hypomanic episodes sometimes anyway, but that the meds increase is making it more constant and pronouced or something like that. But what I want to know is, does anyone have any ideas fo...

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Before You Self-Harm Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? I don't know exactly. My T thinks I might have a mild form a bipolar, and the meds I'm on seem to be making it worse. I don't know. But I know that before my T appointment, I felt all bouncy and happy and g...

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I'm proud of myself because I went to the gym after work. I know exercise is not only good for me physically, but has a profound effect on my mood and stress level. But it's so hard to get myself going sometimes (okay, usually. Just about always). Today, though, I went to the gym even though I was t...

Wow, pluginbaby, that is something to be proud about. It's hard to get going on assignments sometimes (at least for me). I'm proud because I've made almost a week without hurting myself, and it hasn't been easy. And I've been taking my pill every day, since it was prescribed four days ago, and I'm f...

I'm proud that:

• I'm posting on bus, even though it's hard right now.
• I went for a long bike ride today.
• I'm not handling my depression by withdrawing inwards. Instead, I'm forcing myself to remain involved in things like church and volunteer work. I'm doing my best to cope in a healthy way.

This is probably really stupid, but I just wanted to talk to myself, and make myself write out/give voice to the positive, encouraging things I have to say to myself, rather than the destructive voices. Feel free to ignore, or join me and write a message to yourself if you wish. (And sorry if I'm so...

stupid angry frustrated ashamed confused tired Whatever that feeling is when you're prevented from expressing yourself, and you turn in instead, and it's all ragey and swirley and frustrated because you don't think you'll ever be able to express yourself and get your thoughts and experiences and fee...

I got off work early and went to the campus health center, and filled out a million and a half forms so I could talk to a counselor. And I told the counselor about how I've been more depressed lately, and how my private doctor wasn't worried but I was, and she got me an appointment for Monday to see...

I'm proud of myself for making another day without self-harm, even though it wasn't easy. I'm also proud of myself for doing things to take care of myself, like eating a salad, and having fruit (unsweetened blueberries with canned milk) for dessert. I'm proud that I'm fighting the depression, and no...

I'm proud of myself for going to my doctor's appointment today, and telling her about feeling depressed more since I stopped drinking. Even if she misunderstood me and thought I'd just been feeling a little blue, and didn't follow up on what I said at all. It was hard to mention it, and I did, so ev...

Before You Self-Harm Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? I went to my doctor and told her I felt depressed, and she acted like it was no big deal, didn't ask me any questions about how bad, etc, just said she'd see how I felt in two months. I want to hurt myself ...

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