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Completely empty. Resigned.

Just wondering if thats possible - theres a chance people I know are going to find this site and I'd rather I didn't have my real name as my user name. If I can, could I change it to 'Wandering'?

Thanks!

Just do what I've done - follow summer round the world!!! I had the American summer, left there in september and have come to New zealand for their summer, then in May when autumn rolls round I'm going home to Britain for that summer (well if you can call the British summer 'summer'...lol). A year a...

Me too - I do want to stop, in some ways, but in other ways I don't, because I like how SI makes me feel. That's my major difficulty with stopping - I don't want to in some ways.

Anyway, no you're not sick, and you're also not alone.

Andi

Hello. I hope you've held on. It doesn't sound like you're in an easy place, but it does sound like you have a good grip on the consequences of if you do SI - you seem to have thought it all through a lot. I just need to get everything out somehow, have some release which is usually my cutting. What...

Hey, hope you're still coping that's just it. I DON'T WANT TO FEEL ANYMORE Why don't you want to feel any more? Because its too hard feeling those feelings? Maybe you could try and look at doing some things that get those feelings out so they're more dealt with, rather than just distracting you from...

Thankyou for the replies. They have given me some things to think through. I didn't make it, unfortunately, and even worse, I guess, is that it gave me the exact relief I was hoping for. But I can't go through this cycle forever, so while I'm feeling in a better place, I'm going to try to look over ...

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? It won't. Well maybe it will temporarily, but I'll come back to the same place again. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? It will give me a focus. It will, if I'm being frank, make me ...

Sorry you didn't make it through, hope you're feeling ok. Really talking to Pam, there is so much I want to get out, but I won't let myself pull down my tough and independent front. I could have also called my T, that might have helped, but I have never been able to bring myself to do it, because ot...

None of those would really last though. Well, telling someone might, which is why I don't want to. I don't want to be talked out of it. Ok, they might not last long term, but they will get you through the next minute/hour/day. Keep doing things and you'll find all those short bits of time add up. W...

No one is perfect. Well, I'm not convinced being given some labels by doctors and taking meds are imperfections anyway, but if you see them as that then, well, everyone has imperfections.

Who do you want to be?

Take care of you, Andi x

lol that reminded me - someone suggested to me earlier that I should go and try posting in the Before and After forum :-) Yeah - its a good point though - some people have a knack for posting in the right kinda way. I wonder if some people get put off by the fact that they have to apply to be given ...

Hey. I'm sorry you've had a bad day. I hope you're feeling a bit calmer and more clear about things. Did you go to your therapy session? I think really the main issue was the drinking, yeh? It certainly sounds like it was a major thing that pushed you towards SI. Why did you decide to drink today? C...

relieving the anxiety and anger to some extent... If writing and drawing doesn't work at times, maybe try some other coping methods. Why do you think SI works for you? You say its not about the pain, so what is it? If you can work out to some extent why it is effective at relieving those emotions, ...

Can you think of any ways this could be done well ?

Nope!!! Can you? I guess just keep mentioning it on the other boards - we're sure to arouse people's interest after a bit!

thank you guys so much, it's all really helpful

'tis why we're here

For me right now, coping is clutching onto that rope that is the only thing stopping me falling back down the cliff. It is holding on for the chance that maybe one day it'll all get a little easier and the sun will come out from behind the clouds. It's taking each minute as it comes, hoping that if ...

Hey. I know this is a bit late, but I'm guessing you'll be in similar situations again, so here's some more thoughts :wink: i'll probably cry, i need to cry though i need a way to let go of things..to get it out i need to hurt and bleed but mostly just hurt. Ok, well it is possible to learn to cry, ...

one thing that works at times for me... when my own reasons give out... is to hold on to knowing that other people still believe that si'ing is not the best option... that they believe that getting si out of my life is really going to be best... Yep - those kind of things tend to be my main reasons...