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My old one is gone, and every time I pick a new one, it still doesn't show up! I am doomed to be avatar-less.

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when i was getting sa as a child, and my cousin w was also being sa by the same person, i used to try and manipulate situations and set her up so that it would be her instead of me...and it made me feel good inside to know it was her being hurt instead of me

I'm an addict



I cheated on the only person I ever truly loved

Hello hello! Tis' KCat. I am currently moderating the Workshop. I am 29, I live in a house with three cats, and I am a financial coordinator in a cancer hospital. But I just graduated from law school, so hopefully I will have a better job someday. :roll: I have been self-harm free for a little over ...

Please take care....that story was so sad...(about your ex-wife) There was a time that I allowed myself to be used by men, and I carry a lot of that hurt with me now, I know how that pain screams to come out. Good for you for working through all this on here, even if it was "during" and not truly "b...

I read too. I can relate to a lot of what you are feeling. The not being able to speak of things and then wondering why you didn't when you had the chance. The needing to find a T but its just so fucking exhausting of an idea---plus once you have one, the time it will take to establish trust enough ...

Thank you, Amanda. Yes, I realize that people cannot "make" me feel anything. I feel what I feel and make these judgements about myself based on what these people have said or done to me. Someone hurts me--->I tell myself I don't deserve any help or that I am defective somehow--->I start to feel wor...

I AM GOING TO POST HERE ABOUT LAST SATURDAY, THE NIGHT I WENT TO THE ER FOR STITCHES. THIS MIGHT BE A LITTLE GRAPHIC IN DESCRPTION OF BLOOD, BUT NOT IN METHOD. SO THIS IS A TRIGGER WARNING. BE SAFE. :star: :star: have you taken care of your physiacl wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. YES, T...

When I was in DBT therapy I learned the term "urge-surfing." It is something I still think about when I feel like you describe. I feel like that alot--like its all pointless because I'm just postponing the inevitable. I try to visualize myself going along just skimming the tips of my urges...trying ...

Sweetie,
You can always call me--no matter what time it is. Maybe we can make a deal--if you can call me, I can call you.

I love you

Its not too late....try and get he Morning After Pill, or Emergency Contraception (ECP)...I know its legal in AUS. It is available thru Planned Parenthood and thru some private docs, and is basically a high dose of birth control pills that PREVENT a pregnancy from happening (it fools your body into ...

kitties who sleep in a circle on your bed
coffee
being warm inside when its cold outside
a call from a faraway friend
scrubs (like drs wear....comfy)
fleece socks
smelly nice candles

I find this stuff hard to explain IRL, like to my T...it is different from a procedural thought, like "I am going to drive my car off the raod into that wall" but a visual that I SEE and FEEL of myself DOING that. I call them "intrusive imagery". I "see" SI on myself that I can't help myself from go...

WARNING: BAD LANGUAGE TO FOLLOW :star: :star: __________________________________________________ Dad: How come the only thing you ever say to me is to lecture me about starting a retirement fund and saving my money when it is obvious I DON'T HAVE ANY MONEY to save??? Just for once be my FATHER and s...

dad...all my life I have tried to get you to love me. You have largely ignored me all my life...except to criticize. When you found out about M. you said you DON'T BELEIVE ME. oh sorry, you said, "I don't see how that could POSSIBLY have happened the way you say." So after 12 years of silence I tell...