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I don't blame you. I don't hate you. But gawd, I sure as hell resent you. Just so fucking much. How can you not see? How can you think it's just me being ungrateful, lazy, inconsiderate? Don't you think I want to help, to do these things for you? It's fucking bad enough I beat myself up about it ove...

It's just so unfair

lol yes, it probably wouldn't smell very nice but I still think it might be fun. Melting things has always intrigued me, god knows why

The Spirograph sounds awesome Mike! I haven't seen one in agess, not since I was a kid I don't think. It must be such a good distraction :) Melting crayons sounds like fun too :P Will have to get myself some crayons and a colouring book I think. :blkstar: :redstar: :blkstar: Ness :blkstar: :redstar:...

What the fuck? I don't know how all this happened. You're a bunch of selfish, two-faced, patronising, ungrateful and disrespectful human beings. Your taking away the one thing that's keeping me going. You think you can just offer someone something and then take it back when you feel like it. These e...

Oh dear, it seems I have neglected this thread :oops: However thanks all so much for your suggestions. Greatly appreciated! I did end up making a distraction box in the end. I put a lot of different things in it; a stress ball, list of reasons NOT to SI, a photo album of happy memories/people that m...

I told my mum, just over a year ago. Though not by will but out of necessity. We never talk about it. Ever. I only told my mother because I cut quite deep and feared I needed medical attention, she freaked out, took care of the injury for me and after about a week, it never got bought up again. I th...

Useless
Selfish
Dirty

Sore
Weak
Scared
Pathetic
Powerless

It's sort of sad how easy it is to fool you people. How easily you take everything at face value, how little you notice. All it takes is a smile and you're fooled

I am so fucking jealous.
I resent you.
Why didn't you see it?
How can you still be oblivious when my world is crashing down around me?
Will I have to die for you to finally open your eyes?...and then it will be to late for all of us.

Nauseous

...and cold

Hi Candy :1hug: I think a list of causes and reasons not to SI is a good idea and will be a useful tool for you. I quite like your idea of the calendar and marking all the days you don't give into SI. Maybe after every week of not SI-ing you could reward yourself in some way? Like, buy yourself a ni...

Greedy/fat/selfish

Empty.
Misunderstood.
Exhausted.

Numb. Totally Numb.