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Sorry if I posted this in the wrong section.

I have not injured myself in a year. The urges are still very strong, but I have managed to fight the impulses off so far. I still fantasize about it sometimes. Maybe not everyday like before, but still I do. My T has told me that this time he thinks that I will stop for good. How do you know when y...

Lost.

If felt loved.

Want to cry my heart out. She will never love me the way I want her to. I wish I never was born.

What is your secret? I am scared that I made up the abuse. Maybe I'm the monster instead of them. It makes me want to cut, punch or burn myself more. Endlessly. Why is it a secret? Only because my family does not know I am struggling with this and my father is a hero to them - he died the day after ...

didn't feel so cheated of a life.

if I didn't feel so alone.

Wish there was one specifically for SI in my state. But I looked only thing I found is SAFE.

It really made me feel sad and hopeless.

I hate my family.

Unheard. Uncared for.

(I know that's not entirely true. But it feels like that.)

My lonely feelings would improve if I wasn't so guarded.

OWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (You broke my heart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) :heart: :oconf: :argggh: :argggh: :...

LOL - Thank you for your words encouragement. I have done well this week, even tough the urge was there very strong. So far so good. my T is on vacation and I miss him, boy do I miss him. It was just a comfort knowing he was in town. (Sigh)

I will cope.

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Thank you Pink Spider. I am doing better this week.

That Voice Again I want to be with you I want to be clear but each time I try it's the voice I hear I hear that voice again I'm listening to the conversation judge and jury in my head it's colouring everything all we did and said and still I head that sharp tongue talking talking tangled words I ca...

I sumitted to the will of SI, again.
I failed.
I am afraid I will do it again, tonight.
I need something... I don't know what
all I know is i ido'nt have it
i so sick

Certainly Erykah Badu who gave u permission to rearrange me certainly not me who told you that it was alright to love me certainly not me I was not looking for no love affair and now you wanna fix me I was not looking for no love affair and now you want to mold me Was not looking for no love affair...