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It's been a very long time. It feels a little strange to be back here. But here goes... what had happened just before? I got home from work, where I had been trying to pick up extra shifts... what were you thinking and feeling? ... and felt really obnoxious for doing so. I felt like I needed to puni...

I'm sorry.... I'm so sorry you think this is your fault. It's not your fault. It's my fault. Did I lead you on? Did I like the attention? Or was I just being myself, and you actually managed to like me for who I am? I'm sorry I withdrew from you. I'm sorry whatever it was in me that you liked hurt o...

have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. yeah Okay. So! I usually just lurk in this forum and read about how people feel before/after they SI. But sometimes, I comment. So I have a few things to say today. :) First of all, good job taking care of your wounds....

Hello! I haven't seen you around. I'm glad you're taking advantage of Bus's resources, such as this Before and After thread, which I find to be very helpful. I can see you're still a little angry about the whole incident from your use of the word 'ass-hole' and the way your answers are a little shor...

ambivalent red wrote:have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait.
funky music called me out yesterday ... so yes, this time I put some water on it and covered it.

I'm glad you took care of yourself. It's a good idea to respect and value your body.

han wrote:i am really pleased pinky

hugs and congratulations to you
han x

I second that motion. I think Carmen will always be with you.

Lena

Hold on to those promises, Pinky. I'm here for you. :1hug: If you slip now, how will you feel later? Don't break the promises. I'm sure Carmen would understand your pain, but don't you think she'd want you to hold on to yourself? Can you keep holding on? I think you can. I have faith in you. :1sooth...

I'm sorry you slipped, but I think it's great that you tried to call your doc beforehand! Good job on that. Hopefully, next time, he can pick up. It's great that you at least tried to do something before you hurt yourself. Now, do you want to go take care of the wounds? I hope you feel better soon! ...

Relaxed

Ah, yes, I remember that. I dreamt of SI for days. Lord, it's terrible. I'm sorry you have to go through that. I hope they go away soon for you. And if you keep delaying, they probably will! A couple days is a fantastic start. Keep up the good work!

You have done a great job pinning down your feelings, locating and naming them. Just keep holding on! I hope you held/are holding on still, and made/make it to your T appointment. if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then? Lat...

I have felt like this before but I didn't deal with it very well the last time I was here. Then I think I did end up self harming but it didn't help it just left me feeling frustrated and helpless all over again. It's great that you're able to remember this, right? Can you hold on to that? Why woul...

Unsteady
Unstable
Unmotivated
Un.

Sometimes, I'm only pretending to care.

Sometimes, you disgust me.

Thank you Bus.

Thank you. I can't wait till this comes. That's my new motivation. Thank you so much. No SI at least until I try the henna.

One thing I have found very helpful when I am urging is henna. You can get a kit or if you know someone who does henna that is even better. The sensation is reminisant of cutting and it leaves a mark and is cold and wet but in the end it beautifies your skin instead of leaving marks you want to hid...

Before You Self-Harm write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I'm not sure. Because I'm not exactly sure what the situation is. I feel so lost in myself. I guess this isn't exactly new, per say, but to...

ASK ME IF I'M OKAY! ASK ME WHAT'S WRONG!!!!